I can’t cope

I’m so glad that you got some sleep! That is huge! @MissGremlin. I know it’s not enough and you need more but it’s still a good thing.

I have a doctors appointment at 10:40 to get my script. It’s with a different doctor but I just need the script.

Im sorry you are simply existing. I know how hard that is. I forgot to bath the dogs as I rand the doctor and I’m on the phone to mum. Then mum and dad are coming around about 11:30.

@Captain24 one good night isn't enough to make up for all the missed sleep but it's a start.

Hoping the appointment goes ok and you get your script.

It is hard, just have to try to be gentle with myself today. There's still plenty of time left in the day to get things done but only if you're up for it, try not to push yourself sweet.

I’m at the doctor now and I’m really anxious. He is a scary doctor and I don’t like him. @MissGremlin.

One isn’t enough but I’m hoping for you that it’s a start.

I have to do all the floors but I’ll wait until after mum and dad have been because I want to clean behind the entertainment unit they are helping pull out to plug some stuff in. I have to dust, clean the microwave and do all my ironing! Then I can sit for a bit. Maybe look at doing some diamond art that I haven’t touched for well over a week.

What do you have in?

@Captain24 i can understand being anxious. Hoping it goes ok being that you're only getting a script. Sitting with you sweet ❤️.

Sounds like a bit to get done but hope it all goes smoothly and that you can do some diamond art after.

I have nothing.

What time do you have to go out this afternoon? @MissGremlin. Oh and I have to go grocery shopping! Maybe I can figure something else out for meals so I don’t have to go.

@Captain24 2.30 i head out. Hopefully you can work something out for meals so you don't have to do the grocery shopping today.

I’ll check the cupboard. I can make curried egg sandwiches for lunches just have to see if I can figure out dinners. @MissGremlin Save me some money as this doctor will charge me!

I was hoping to fit some diamond art in together but we won’t be free at the same time. 😢. Maybe my next break.

@Captain24 that sucks that the doctor will charge you. Curried egg sandwiches are yummy though, hope you can work out dinners.

We'll definitely aim for being able to do some diamond art together next break. This one has been pretty messed up for both of us.

He bulk billed me! @MissGremlin. Complete shock. He was disgusted with how much medication I am on though! 😂 I got the script though and now have it. It was for one of my antidepressants so it was important! At least he gave me 2 boxes per script. So now it’s $100 for two not one!

Mum and dad have just left. So now I need to clean the floors. I’m not going to worry about dusting I don’t think. It can wait.

We will have to organise a time that works for us both. I do have next weekend off though.

I have enough food so I don’t have to go shopping!!!!!

I’m sitting on the lounge feeling really sick. I can’t do it. I can’t do what I need to do but I have to. I have no work clothes for tomorrow as I haven’t ironed them. The floors are a mess and it’s disgusting. I need to have a shower and wash my hair as it’s all stuck together. I’m really not coping. My anxiety is freaking me out. I just want to cry. I can’t do this. Where do I find the ability to be able too? What do I do? I’m scared and I’m overwhelmed and I can’t think straight and I don’t know what to do.