I can’t cope

@Captain24 I hear you sweet. I wish I could take it away for you as I know how hard it is. But I can sit here with you so that you're not alone.

I'm very shaky and feeling overwhelmed at the moment, today was alot and even getting the medication I know isn't a magical cure. My doctor knows I need intense support but trying to access that isn't proving to be easy and hospital isn't an option but I'm going to investigate the possibility of doing things as an outpatient but that will require the CATT team.

I'm safe and currently cooking dinner, about to feed Casper as he's staring at me 😂

Outpatient sounds like a good idea. @MissGremlin. It would be something.

@Captain24 yes it would be.

I have something exciting to share. I've been wanting to try a square diamond art and I finally found one, it's one I've done before in round but now I'll get to do it in square and compare which I like better. It arrived today along with some other kits too ☺️.

Something to try to remember @Captain24 @MissGremlin about nightmares is that our amygdala, that little almond deep in the brain (that is a key processing centre for emotions and is heavily involved in our fight/flight response), doesn't know what is real and what is not. So to our brains, when we are in the nightmare, we are experiencing fear that is as real as if it were actually happening.

Knowing this may not make it any less scary or overwhelming to experience, but it can help us to not be so hard on ourselves when we're so deeply impacted by something that is 'just a dream'.

I think what is important @Captain24 is not what you did in your dream, but how you are feeling about it upon waking. I think that is the true representation of who you are.

Other songs that come to mind -

Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen

Sweet Home Alabama by Lynyrd Skynrd

Eye of the Tiger by Survivor

Livin' on a Prayer by Bon Jovi

Plus like, any ABBA song 😋

That’s cool. You’ll have to tell me how you go with it @MissGremlin

I feel disgusted @Jynx. I feel ashamed. It’s only a dream but reopening it has made it feel real. I know in my head that it’s not and and that its just a dream but it has been consuming me all afternoon. I’m still laying in bed. It’s the only place I feel safe and not as scared.

Those songs are good. I’m going to write them down. Thank you.

@Jynx that amygdala is overworking in my brain, it needs to chill the heck out 😂.

I actually watch videos by Sarai Speer on things like this regularly and it always amazes me and it helps. She also makes me laugh the way she talks about things.

@Captain24

I’m trying to be out of bad again. It’s not going well.

@Captain24 oh sweet, I'm here with you ❤️. Are you up to have some dinner?

I’m going to have to have dinner even though the thought of eating makes my stomach churn. @MissGremlin. I have to take my meds. I haven’t even sorted them out yet.

I’m really still totally out of sorts.