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I can’t cope

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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@Captain24 i wish I could work on larger sections at a time but I have to keep stopping and starting so it's easier to do small ones. Look at all that grass 😂.

It's rare for Casper to get locked anywhere as he's always by my side but it's happened occasionally.

Swear I'm going to put double sided tape on this picture 😂

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I get that makes it easier for you as you don’t get lost in it when you are interrupted. I’m usually free to just keep going. I finish one colour before I do what ever I have to. @MissGremlin I think your way is probably quicker though.

YES!!! Lots of grass… it’ll look good if I ever get it finished! He should stand out like Pix did. The next one shouldn’t be as hard as it’s an indoor photo. It’ll be nice to do an easier one. All the photos that I have picked to order next time, some are ok but I think the sunset one is going to take forever!!!!

Double sided tape! 😂

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@Captain24 the only time I don't get interrupted is at night time but even then I still work on the smaller sections.

You'll get it finished, eventually 😂. It's going to look amazing once it's done though, Jett looks so content just laying in the grass. I might get this one done eventually too, it's taking me like 3-4 attempts to get one dot to stick!.

The sunset one might be harder but it will be so pretty though.

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Im really sorry to bail on you but I have to get ready to go to mums @MissGremlin. I’ll hopefully be home before 5! Fingers crossed!🤞

I don’t want to but Pix has been waiting all day.

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@Captain24 all good sweet. I was just about to say that I finished the section i was doing and that I need to do some things around here.

I hope all goes ok sweet and take it easy. Sending lots of love and hugs ❤️.

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I’ve just gotten home @MissGremlin

I am so so so tired. Pix walks a lot better than she used to. She did knock up though and I had to carry her for a bit. But apparently dad walks slower than I do so she had to keep up with me. She just took off when we started. When we got to the park she ran a muck through all the piles of leaves. I carried her for about 10 minutes and then she was fine to go again.

How did your afternoon go?

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@Captain24 i can understand how you'd be tired, hoping you can get a good sleep tonight. Haha it sounds like Pix had a good time.

It's been a tough afternoon, I'm annoyed cos i made butter chicken but I'm not able to eat it as my jaw keeps locking up which is incredibly painful. I'm very much ready for bed, I'm feeling exhausted.

Did mum like her presents?

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She had a great time. @MissGremlin. I think she loved that I was there. I even let her walk through a puddle.

I got to mums and said I was tired and she asked why. I had to reminder her I’m getting over COVID! The exhaustion is still there. I can barely keep my eyes open and my body is shaking.

Does your jaw open at all when it locks up? I had lock jaw once when I had bad tonsillitis and it wouldn’t open very far all the time. So I think I kinda get it. What helps?

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@Captain24 I'm glad she had a good time and I'm sure she enjoyed walking through the puddle.

Oh sweet, it sounds like it was alot for your body especially as you're still getting better. Have you taken your cold and flu meds?

It crucnches/clicks everytime I chew and will lock up to the point where I have to force it open/closed. I'll often wake up with it locked, it's just horrible. Nothing helps it unfortunately, just have to deal with it. Surgery to line my jaw up comes with severe risks and could actually make it worse and leave me with permanent paralysis.

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I’m sorry that I didn’t respond. I had an hour and a half sleep before I had to feed the dogs dinner. Now I’m back in bed for the night @MissGremlin. I’m sorry I’m just so worn out.

That’s not good about your jaw, does it happen often?

I hope you sleep better tonight.

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