@MissGremlin wrote:
@Jynx i have conversations with him as it is 😂.
Yes indeed it is. Thankyou ❤️.
Initially I was glad that it was cancelled but then it hit me that I desperately needed that support after everything that's happened within the last week.
I'm constantly questioning what's so wrong with me that noone wants to help me. Then all the heavy feelings and thoughts set in and it's alot to sit with. I've tried so hard to get help, pushing myself to make phone calls to seek support, writing emails when I struggle to know what to say, I've poured my heart out to places and been open and honest in how I'm feeling and thinking but yet noone will try to help.
I'm safe, sitting in bed with Casper, watching a TV show and doing my diamond art.
Chatting to our pets just feels natural hey!
Have you been able to catch up with your SW since last week @MissGremlin?
Human brains like to solve problems, and when the problems are external and seem to make no sense, feel unfair, or feel unsolvable, it's easy to then try to look inward, to blame ourselves or want to figure out what could be wrong with us to not get the support we need.
It sucks so much, but systemic issues are far more frequently to blame, and whilst I know this doesn't make your situation any different, I hope you can try to remind yourself that you are not wrong or broken, and you deserve to feel like you're worthy of care. Because you are, and you don't need to be or have done anything to deserve that chance, other than the fact you're a person.
Hope you and Casper are doing okay today 💜
