I can’t cope

That’s still something @MissGremlin

Im guessing you are seeing your support worker. I hope you can open up to her.

I’ve just climbed into bed and hopefully about to go to sleep.

please look after yourself today

How are you today? @Captain24 💛

@Captain24 the support worker cancelled on me.

Hoping you've been getting a good sleep sweet.

Hey @AuntGlow

Ive just woken up to get ready for work tonight. I don’t want to go but after 2 days off I really have to. But I have decided a need a break so I’ve booked a week off in 4 weeks. Just to hopefully do nothing. I think I have figured out where the constant exhaustion has come from.

I got an email back from my psych and she said that this is normal. I just felt what the good parts are for a little while. This is part of coming out of the bipolar depression. This is not a moment this could be a a while until I get back to where I was but to just keep doing what I’m doing and it will come back again. I shouldn’t go as far backwards as I was though.

Im still really down and out and have zero energy. I feel like this is what my life’s about and I won’t get the good parts again.

That’s a shame she cancelled @MissGremlin. Did you get a bit of rest?

I slept well and have just woken up but I’m still exhausted.

@Captain24 i managed to sleep but only out of complete exhaustion. I'm not feeling great at the moment, lots of nausea which is messing with my anxiety so I'm about to take another anti nausea tablet to hopefully help settle things. Really wanting to go to bed as I'm just feeling so tired, like I'm physically struggling to keep my eyes open. I'm safe and have to start dinner soon.

Really hoping work goes ok for you tonight sweetheart.

Maybe when you go to bed tonight just try and lay down and go to sleep instead of trying to do anything. Maybe just lay there and it’ll happen. Exhaustion is real. @MissGremlin

Sorry about the nausea I hope you can stop it. While I don’t understand the level of anxiety I do know that it’s really bad for you.

It’s not raining at the moment but it’s suppose to rain while I’m driving so after aquaplaning I am a little nervous! Hopefully it passes quickly. I haven’t done the last 2 days so I only have 2 shifts until I have days off again. Hopefully that mindset helps.

@Captain24 I'm hoping I'm still tired when it comes to bedtime so I can sleep.

The anxiety over it is ridiculous and has been so bad lately which is why I asked my doctor for meds to help with it. The first ones weren't really helping and were upsetting my tummy in other ways if you get what I mean which then triggered more anxiety so when I talked to him yesterday he prescribed a different one so we'll see how that goes.

I'm hoping the rain isn't too bad so there'll be no risk of aquaplaning. Just take it easy out there sweet. Try to focus on knowing it's just 2 nights and then some time off and having some more time coming up soon that you'll just get to relax and have time for yourself. Sending lots of love and hugs sweetheart ❤️

Try not to fight it and let it be. @MissGremlin. I really hope you can sleep.

Hopefully the new ones work better with less side effects.

Im just about to jump into the car. I’ll message you at the smoke stop if I have time.

@Captain24 hmmm i wonder if the new meds make you sleepy, maybe that's why I'm so tired. Shall have to look up the side effects i think lol.

Hope to hear from you if you get a chance either way I'll be thinking of you sweet ❤️.