I can’t cope

@Captain24 awww sweet, you haven't failed. Today's just been a bit of a tough one, you woke up with a headache but yet you still did so well to do diamond art and even get out to get things done.

Try to remember to be gentle with yourself, this is just a little bump in the road. But it doesn't erase the amazing progress that you've made.

Also you never have to apologise for sharing how you're feeling, I'm always here for you.

Sending lots of love and hugs. Night night sweetheart ❤️.

I called in sick again @MissGremlin

Morning @Captain24 sweet, I'm sorry to hear. Are you ok? Im here for you ❤️.

Not really @MissGremlin

@Captain24 I'm here if you want to talk about anything sweet. Sending love and hugs ❤️

Thanks @MissGremlin. If I had the money I’d make a psych appointment for today. She would fit me in.

Just been on the phone to mum. She has found the dog jacket pattern and some material that she will drop in next week so I can make Jett some jackets to keep him warm. The ones from my old dog fit so I can use her size. He IS NOT wearing Homeys jackets. They will go back in the box with all her stuff.

Just been doing some diamond art other than that. I will have to go back into town and get another certificate though. It’s raining and cold here.

How are you going?

@Captain24 could you email your psych just to let her know how you're feeling, even if you can't get an appointment maybe getting things out might help?

That's great that your mum has found a pattern for a dog jacket and some material, making them will keep you busy too. Can understand wanting to keep Honey's ones kept away. I've got toys from Laylah that I won't allow Casper to play with cos they were her favourite ones.

Doing diamond art is good and I'm hoping the trip into town goes ok for you. It's cold here today and there's showers but the sun has come out a few times.

I didn't get much sleep, only 3 hours and that wasn't until after 2.30am. So things are rough but I have a Telehealth appointment with my doctor at 10.10. Think my lounge is going to be my spot for the day.

I did just email her. @MissGremlin. See what she says.

I haven’t made anything in years! I’ve done a lot of hemming but not an actual item. It should be good especially when I have a jacket a similar size to what he needs. I’ll try it on Pix next week and see if it fits her and what I have to adjust for both of them.

I have a tub of stuff that was Honeys. I have her ashes on my tallboy in my room with her favourite teddy and her last little tennis ball we played with. She use to love playing fetch! It was the very first box I moved into my house. When my furniture was being moved in and I was staying for the first time that night. Her ashes were moved in before any of the furniture!

We have had some good rain which is good as we needed follow up from last week. I’m sitting here with my Oodie on. It’s nice and warm and cozy.

Sorry you didn’t get much sleep and that things are rough. I hope your appointment went ok. The lounge sounds good!

@Captain24 I'm glad you've emailed her and I hope it's helpful when she replies sweet.

I reckon sewing is one of those things that you don't forget, but sometimes it takes a bit to get back into the hang of things. It will be good to have some jackets for him especially as winter is here now.

Awww that's so special. I have all my dogs ashes in a frame with their pictures and a teddy on them that holds some of their hair, they all sit on a shelf in my loungeroom and there's a few toys to there with them. I also have 3/4 of their paw prints tattooed on me, still need to get my last girls one done.

It's good you're getting some decent rain and having your oodie on sounds nice and cosy.

My appointment felt very dismissive. I'm desperate for relief from the nightmares and not being able to sleep but he's just not listening to me. He's written a letter to a place that I've been trying to get telehealth support from as they are saying that I need to go in for the first one which just isn't possible so hopefully this letter will be enough to get support without having to go in there but my counsellor did already try previously and they wouldn't listen.

It’s only just gotten cold. @MissGremlin Today is only 8 degrees and yesterday was 11. Up until then it’s been 15+ which is really really unusual for here. Usually we are having frosts at this time of year and really heavy ones at that. It also doesn’t normally reach double digits. It’s really weird but we haven’t been complaining 😂.

Jett was shivering so I put one of the jumpers that I have for him here on and it’s just not long enough for his long body. He’s curled up with Pix at the moment.

I use to like sewing and made a lot of things. Especially dance costumes. My bestie would draw a picture and I had to make it!

My babies are really special to me and I put them first. As they are to you and many people.

Im sorry he won’t help. Something needs to be done and looked at. Hopefully this will work for you. They need to understand that with severe mental health issues somethings are just too hard.

How’s the lounge going?