I can’t cope

Nah definitely not but it is what it is and we will adapt. @MissGremlin. It’s more so the question was asked but not answered. I’d rather have not been asked.

I don’t even notice anymore. It’s just work and it’s all big. The only time I notice is when I’m driving a car around. That’s when I think they are big. They can crush a car in an instant.

I get that! Same happened.

Your headaches are constant but maybe that’s because of lack of sleep. I think if somehow you could manage your sleep things might be different for you.

Alright… I’m waiting! 😂

@Captain24 indeed we will, as a community we've all got each other's backs. Yes i get that, it actually hurts less to just not have it then to have it and not get a response.

Hehe your like an ant in comparison to the big trucks when you're in a car 😂.

I'm sorry you've had the same experience, it sucks but in a way I'm glad you get what it's like, just makes me feel like I'm not alone in it. Not that I'm glad it happened though, I'm sure you get what I mean.

Yes alot of mine is from the lack of sleep which is frustrating. Really going to pester my doctor about a sleep study when I see him next.

I just finished my tuna on toast so I'm ready now, let's do this ☺️.

Yeah I get what you mean. A similar experience means we understand each other. I’m sure we aren’t the only ones! @MissGremlin

Let’s go. I should finish this section in the next hour or so. Then I’ve got 2 smaller sections to go. They will be quicker as there is as many dots to look for in the rocks!

Did you get much of your done last night?

@Captain24 i know we're not the only ones. Going to leave the subject alone now so we don't get in trouble. But yes we understand each other.

Oohhh getting so close to being finished. I've started a new section and once I've done this one it will finish the row and I'll be halfway done.

I did 2 sections last night when I was sitting in bed.

It’s getting close but still so far away! 😂 @MissGremlin. Then I have 2 more to do. I want to start looking at the other ones mum wants just not sure I can afford it. Depending on Pixies X-ray I maybe be close to having her sorted. If the stones aren’t dissolving though she will need surgery to remove them! Hoping these tablets are working!!!

Half way feels so good. You can see the progress. I love how yours are all bright colours. Do you pick them that way?

@Captain24 haha i know the feeling. So close but yet so far 😂. Really hoping those stones are dissolving and the tablets are doing their job. Pix having surgery wouldn't be ideal and I'd love for you to be able to get some more diamond art.

I do pick them to be bright, runs on the same thought with my colouring in that my life is dark enough so I like to use bright colours to help lighten things up.

hi @Captain24 I am so sorry that you have this headache and pain, the idea of sleeping and resting today sounds like the best remedy, look after yourself and give yourself lots of compassions today and allow yourself to rest 💜

I hope so. I don’t want her to have to have surgery. The last fructose test was good and her urine sample showed no glucose so I think we are really close with her insulin dose. If the stones aren’t dissolving then I’m guessing it’ll be a few more X-rays to see if they go. So there is a little more expense, they are nearly $500! But she is so close so I’m hoping in the next few months all her tests will be done and then it hopefully will be follow up tests longer apart! @MissGremlin

I was wondering that. Everything you do is bright. Which is actually a really good thing. I think it’s helpful in seeing some light instead of more doom and gloom. Got on you!!!

Thanks @Tolly

Im staring to get better at the compassion thing and looking after myself. It’s taking some time but I am way ahead of what I was. I have turned a massive corner and think I’m on the way out for the depression. However some days it hits really hard and I fail. I do still feel really down and out but I am looking after myself so I’m hoping these tablets mood lifts as I keep going. My mood is so much better than what it was. I don’t have suicidal thoughts constantly, frequently though. But 8/10 times it doesn’t come with the urges. I know that I am safe.

Anyway… that’s not the response you were looking for! 😂 I do plan on spending some time in bed and the connection of doing diamond art at the same time as @MissGremlin makes me feel connected.

@Captain24 I'm keeping everything crossed for both you and Pix. That's really good, you must definitely be getting close to the right dose for her.

Thankyou sweet ❤️.