I can’t cope

I was telling her everything that I’m trying to change and that I’m doing it all slowly in the hope that it sticks and not trying to change everything at once. She was really proud of me. I told her that I couldn’t have made the decision to change things without her support. I told her how much I appreciate all the work and effort she has put into me. Then she cried. She then said that we make a good team and that I’ve always tried to work on things. She said that she never has finished an appointment with me thi king that I hadn’t tried anything. She also said…. That I’m so good and easy to work with! The last one I thought of you @tyme

I just copied and pasted didn’t know how to do the other thing @tyme

I actually thought you had or that I had done something wrong.

Nah… I never got it back. They have settled down a bit so I’m hoping it was a cat. When to much is going on and they are barking like that I do get scared to let them out sometimes. If Pix would stop costing me thousands of dollars I could get security camera. If she ever settles down.

You are always busy!!

That is priceless. I have actually done stuff like that before especially since my roster is weird. I wake up and have to think why is that alarm going off or why didn’t my alarm go off. Then it’s what day is it? Do I have to work? What am I suppose to be doing?

How’s your post-it notes going?

Also @tyme I got these photos off Facebook. It’s not my site, I don’t know where it is and that person isn’t recognisable. They were on a public page.

Hey @tyme

Im going to bed as I have to work in the morning. I really hope you see my posts. I really want you to see them. I’ll get your response in the morning if you do.

I won’t really be around u til Friday night. I’d really love to chat if you’re around. I’ve been missing you.

I’ve just called in sick. I didn’t want to go to work, I’m tired and have a headache that I think is a migraine developing. I don’t usually get them.

Im hating on myself right now and I’m hating on life. Just little things trigger it.

I was really hurt by something on here last night that happened, well didn’t happen is more the point I guess.

I feel like no one gives a shit anymore. I’m just a number that is unimportant and just gets in the way. I’m just a burden to everyone. On here and off here

No one would care if I was gone. They’d probably be happy as I’d be one less burden on life.

Hi Captain24,

I'm really sorry to hear you are feeling this way, especially as something on the forum has contributed. We appreciate your open honesty. It sounds like you decided to look after yourself today by calling in sick, sometimes we need that space.

I have also sent you an private email to check in about your safety

Regards,

Oolive

Morning @Captain24 sweet, I'm sorry that you've woken up with a headache and I'm really hoping it doesn't turn into a migraine.

I can understand why you're feeling hurt and I honestly get it. Just know that to me you're definitely not just a number and you are so important. I care so much about you and value our connection/friendship on here.

I hope you can get some rest today, try to be gentle on yourself sweetheart. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️.

It feels like there is a band tightening around my head and it’s getting tighter. Light hurts my head. I’ve taken a script only pain relief and script only anti-inflammatory. @MissGremlin. I feel a little drugged up.

Thanks for understanding. I appreciate that you get it. That’s the third time asked and the third time ignored. Also they wanted to see those pictures. What did you think of them? I don’t have that actually truck at my mine but it’s the same size as what I drive we do have that digger and dozer though.

It’s almost time to feed the dogs so I got up. Then I’m going to do some diamond art and see how I go. I think there will be lots of sleeping today though. I do have to go to the chemist and get my meds and a certificate.

What’s your plans for the day? Do you want to meet up at anytime?

@Captain24 oh that feeling is horrible. I hope the pain relief helps sweet and quickly for you too. Try to keep the lights dim if you can at least until it starts to ease a bit.

The photos were amazing, I can't get over the size of the trucks. I still refer to them as tonka trucks 😂.

I think it needs to be a gentle day today, for both of us even. Hope getting your meds and certificate goes ok, just take it slowly out there.

I'd love to do some diamond art with you if you're up for it. I just have to do the morning routine then I'll be back and I'll do my dishes but that's all I've got today. I'll probably nap around 12ish myself today for a little bit.

I hope it eases. I didn’t want to go to work anyway. @MissGremlin. The hurt brought on rejection and I lot of feelings and trauma reminders that go with it.

Im sorry you got in trouble. That’s hard and hurts too. I understand the going quiet. I do too. Plus I get attitude with it so it’s best if I go quiet.

They look like tonka trucks! They are so big but you forget how big they are. I walked past one the other day, it was moving slowly, and I could have touched its tyres. Just casually walking next to it to get to my truck.

I will be slow. I’ll call into Woolies as well if there is a park. The drinks I drink are in special so I’ll stock up and I have to go and pay my vet bill. So I’ll be out for a little while.

Im up for it. I’m starting it now but you let me know when you are ready and I’ll be waiting!

@Captain24 oh I really do understand those feelings of rejection and I get the trauma reminders that go with it. The changes they've made really haven't helped the community in my opinion.

Haha you do forget how big they are until you're right next to them 😂. I've been up close to them and gotten to touch them and I still feel like a little kid getting all excited 😂.

I'm glad you'll take it slow and what a bonus that your drinks are on special. Good idea to get the vet bill out the way while you're out too.

I'm just going to do my dishes and see if I can find something to eat and then I'll be ready. I have a headache too that feels like there's too much pressure in my head, I've taken pain relief earlier and it hasn't eased it so I'm hoping a rest later might help it.