I can’t cope

@Captain24 get your butt to bed Missy 😂😂. That's the stage I get to but it's usually around 5pm that I start getting really tired but it's too early to go to bed so I keep going and then come bedtime I'm wide awake.

Oh how times change. As kids we complain about going to bed early yet as adults we long for an early night 😂.

Fingers crossed we can both get a really good sleep.

Morning @Captain24 sweet, how are you doing?

Yeah.. I guess I’m alright @MissGremlin. I slept well so that’s good. I’ve done a fair bit this morning. I just have to vacuum, sweep and wash the floors and then I can have a shower and wash my hair. I’ll go and get some fuel and all I will have to do is bring my washing in and iron it. I wrote out my list with times on it so I would keep focused better and I’m well ahead of what I thought so that feels good.

I’ll be able to sit down and do diamond art for a few hours this afternoon. Just have to do the ironing during that if it doesn’t rain and my washing dries.

Sorry that was a lot…

How are you going?

@Captain24 I'm always so impressed with how much you get done sweet. I'm so glad you slept well, such great news after the crappy night the other day. Feeling good cos you're ahead of schedule is amazing, hoping all goes well with the remaining things so you can relax with your diamond art this afternoon.

It's completely ok sweet, always here to listen to whatever you have to share ☺️.

Things really aren't great for me today, last night was rough with lots of nightmares and panic attacks. I just had a really bad blood nose that wouldn't stop for quite a while but it's finally settled now thankfully. I'm safe for now, I'm laying in bed with Casper, trying to get through to a crisis service. I tried to have a nap before but only dozed off for 5 minutes before waking up in a panic after a nightmare, it's frustrating that it doesn't matter what time of the day or night it is i just can't seem to get sleep.

I just like to share what I’ve done because it makes it real. It shows me what I have done and makes me a little proud of myself. It’s only things that have to be done but being able to do them is a huge step for me as I struggled so much. @MissGremlin

Just so you know. You amaze me with how much you get out of the house each day and that you cook meals every night. I don’t and can’t do that. So that impresses me

I’m sorry about the nightmares. They are just never ending. You need some decent sleep. What caused the blood nose? I’m sorry it’s so hard. I’m relieved that usually things are quite that hard anymore just moments. I still don’t feel great though but just down and out and going about the motions.

@Captain24 totally get the fact that by sharing it makes it feel real. You definitely should be proud of yourself sweet, i know I'm so proud of you. Yes they're things that have to be done but it's still not always easy to actually do them especially on days when things are feeling tough.

Awww thankyou sweet, like you it's just things that need to be done but deep down i know they are still accomplishments when I've been struggling so much.

The nightmares are so hard to be dealing with especially when I'm just not getting much sleep at all. The blood nose I'm not sure what caused it but I have them every day often multiple times, I've raised it with my doctor but he's not really concerned by them given that we did an mri a couple of years ago now and it was clear. I get that feeling of down and out, just know that you're not alone sweet ❤️.

I'm going to pop my leftover roast in the oven so I can have it for lunch.

I’m glad you can see them as accomplishments. Even though it’s deep down. It’s hard to just get off the lounge and do these things even though we have too. @MissGremlin

My mum use to get blood noses that often as well. Hers came from having too much iron in her system. Something to think about.

Heating up the roast beef sounds good. I’ll just have leftover quiche when I finish everything. I’m trying to talk myself into a shower. It’s a bit tough now that I sat and doom scrolled while in the phone talking to mum. It’s a lot to take in.

Do you have to go out this afternoon or can we do diamond art together?

@Captain24 it is so hard to just find the motivation to do things sometimes. But both of us despite how hard things have been have still been doing the best we can and getting things done.

It's incredibly sad and having it pop up in Facebook brings all those feelings up again. Whilst I might know a general area that's about as far as it goes and I also would never say anything so don't stress about that sweet.

I had a blood test last year that was all ok other than the insulin levels that my doctor wasn't concerned about. But I'm going to ask him to do another one when I see him next.

Leftover quiche sounds yummy, what type is it? Maybe you could get up and walk outside for a few minutes, it might just help to get things moving a bit. Sending hugs sweetheart ❤️.

I don't have to go out but I do have some things to do. I'll see if I can do a few of them earlier so we can sit and do diamond art together ☺️

It can be so hard. I like that I’m being held accountable though. @Ru-bee and rav3n were my accountability buddies when they were around. So I miss that. So now I have to use my psych. Even though I don’t see her for another 2 weeks.

I got in the shower so now I have to do the floors, dry my hair and go and get fuel. I’ll be done easily by 1pm. So other than ironing I’ll be free all afternoon until I cook dinner and unpack the dishwasher then.

I think another one is worth a try. I have insulin issues as well but not worth worrying about yet and fatty liver.

It’s just some pumpkin thing I bought at woollies. It’s nice though. I’ll get it again. I’m sitting outside now. It won’t take me long to do the other stuff so I’m just going to do it and then it’s done.

It’s just started raining on my washing so I’ve just ran and got it off the line in the middle of typing this! It’s nearly dry 😢

Let me be out accountability buddy. What if I meet you at 2:30? Would that work?

@Captain24 we can always be each other's accountability buddies ☺️. I know it's been hard with the workers not being around much and alot of us are really feeling it. It's tough when you only see your psych every few weeks.

You did well to get in the shower sweet, hoping all the other things go smoothly for you.

I definitely won't say anything. I actually get alot of random things pop up in my news feed from all sorts of places.

Yes i definitely think it's a good idea to have another one done. My levels just indicated that I'm heading into that pre diabetes stage but he's not concerned cos my diet is healthy.

It sounds nice, glad it's something you can get again.

Oh no to it starting to rain, that sucks. Were you able to get it in before it got too wet?

That actually sounds perfect to me and I should be able to get things done before 2.30 ☺️.