I can’t cope

@Captain24 said person doesn't come with a filter nor do they stop to think how their actions or words could impact someone.

I know someone like that and they raised me @MissGremlin

@Captain24 oh I'm with you there sweet. Sending hugs ❤️.

I think someone is hanging around my house. The dogs keep going off. They have usually settled by now as it’s bedtime. I’m in bed but my house is locked up. So they can’t get in easily. I’m a little unnerved though. My chest is tight. My heart rate has gone up a little. I just keep listening. I know that I’m safe but it still feels a little scary. I really just need to go to sleep now so I don’t think about it or listen. If I put my white noise in it’ll drown out whatever it is that I’m trying to listen for. I’m so so so tired right now. I really do need to go to sleep. Maybe I’m that tired that I will anyway.

@Captain24 oh that's definitely unnerving sweet. Hoping it's just a cat that's hanging around outside rather than a person. I hope you can get some sleep soon sweetheart. Sending love and hugs ❤️.

I’m having trouble with sleep tonight. I was in a deep sleep when Pix started kicking my face. She has done that before when I was asleep however I had done something and planned on not waking up. I think I nearly did it that night. I’m wondering if maybe I stopped breathing tonight and that’s why she did it. I had one other night that Jett just jumped in my chest and mum suggested then as well that maybe I stopped breathing then too. It’s unusual behaviour for them.

Now Jett has just been outside barking. It’s starting to scare me as to what or who is hanging around. I live in my own and I’ve recently had washing stolen off my line.

Im getting really scared an unnerved with what ever is happening. The sleeping thing doesn’t really matter. I don’t care if that happens.

It’s been a rough nights sleep. When I desperately need it. Plus I’m embarrassed that my dog probably just woke up the neighbours. They have been really unsettled all day. Barking constantly and not stopping when I’ve yelled at them.

In really overwhelmed and uncertain right now. I don’t feel safe. My house is locked up so I am but what if someone is hanging around and watching me.

Hi @Captain24

This sounds like a very tough nights sleep, and a few things that are impacting you feeling safe in your home - which is your safe haven. Having Jett and Pix unsettled too makes things really tricky hey.

If you are worried about people being around, you could call your local police station (I know calling 000 or police can feel extreme) and let them know about things being stolen and the worry about people being outside. Perhaps a car could be sent around to check? Again, I know this may feel extreme, but it could settle some worries?

Otherwise, I wonder if there is a show or music you could but on that helps you feel calm? Having something soothing playing will provide background noise and Jett and Pix might be able to settle with you?

Also a warm drink...sounds silly but the process can create a calming effect.

take care

Mindee

It’s been a horrible night. They’ve been out just now barking again. I think I heard a cat though. @Mindee

I couldn’t call the police they have bigger things to worry about right now. Something pretty bad happened.

I put my white noise on and I had a chocolate milk. It seems to be having a calming affect lately.

I guess I’m up now to stay up. I’m really tired but having a disturbed sleep is making going back to sleep hard. I am visiting a friend today and that’s going to be exhausting. The social contact and her 11 year old son are going to wear me out. I’m not looking forward to haw exhausted today is going to make me feel.

Morning @Captain24 sweet, I'm sorry it's been a rough night for you. Pix and Jett barking i imagine would have made the night both unnerving but also frustrating.

I hope seeing your friend today goes ok though I know how hard it is to be social when you're exhausted.

Sending love and hugs sweetheart ❤️.

I’m sitting here doing diamond art with my eyes hanging out of my head @MissGremlin

How did last night go?