I can’t cope

Thanks @MissGremlin

@tyme @Jynx are either of you around?

If so am I able to send an email please?

Its ok. I’m just going to bed. I just need some advice and some guidance but can’t post it on here.

I’m in bed. Pix at me feet and Jett behind me knees. I’m so glad that they are comfortable. Shame about me though!

Im really tired and exhausted. I feel beaten down by the day I’ve had today. I’m just laying here listening to my white noise. Barely able to keep my eyes open. But they don’t want to shut. I’m hoping by this bright light they may give in.

At this stage I see myself in bed after physio. I feel like I have given up again. Maybe I just pushed too hard. Maybe I have u done everything that I tried to fix. I don’t know. It’s a little concerning though.

@Captain24 I'm glad you're in bed sweet. Hoping you can get some sleep soon. Know that I'm so proud of you for everything you did today and also so grateful for your support. Sending you so much love and hugs sweetheart ❤️.

I’ve been tossing and turning a lot tonight. I doze on and off. I can’t get comfortable. I’m hoping I fall into a deep sleep shortly. Maybe I’m just too tired to sleep. I know that doesn’t make sense but it does in my head. It’s like I’m over tired.

I don’t want anything just getting it out in the hope of finding some sleep.

Morning @Captain24 sweet, how's things feeling for you today?

Hey @MissGremlin

Im feeling a little down and out. I just have physio right now then I’m done in town. I’ve done everything else. I have to go home and iron all the clothes that have been drying over the last 2 days and then I’m free until my washing that is on the line dries and I need to iron it.

I have opened my blinds as there is sun shine and I’m hoping that that will lift me a little. I’m going to put another coat of sealer on the diamond arts and I’m going to work on my diamond art. I was going to bath the dogs as it’s not raining but that just feels like too much.

How are you going?

@Captain24 I'm sorry you're feeling down and out sweet. Hoping physio goes ok for you.

I hope the sunshine can help to lift your mood even if it's only a little bit. Working on your diamond art and putting another coat of sealer on the other ones sounds like a perfect idea.

I'm really struggling and feeling like shutting down and giving up, don't think anyone would care or notice, if anything feel like everyone would celebrate to no longer have to deal with me. That's what's going through my brain today. I'm safe for now, I'm about to put food on, have a shower then snuggle on the lounge with Casper.

Physio was good @MissGremlin.

Ive been discharged.

I’ve just done the ironing that I had. Just waiting for the clothes to dry to do that ironing. I’ve sealed the diamond arts again. I need to do another coat, I’ll either do it tonight if tomorrow morning.

I think I might have some weetbix and then get into the diamond arts. I’m struggling with it a little bit as I have done 5 colours on this section and you can’t really tell. It’s just taking a while to get into it. I just keep reminding myself that it’s a really hard one.

I would care and notice. I am someone just on the other side of a screen. I get the shut down. That’s just so hard that you just don’t want anyone or anything. I’m feeling a little like that but I’m working through it. I have peopled a lot in the last 8 days! I need a no people day! But tomorrow I will spend a couple of hours at my besties house. Sunday all I have is grocery shopping in the morning and hopefully I don’t see anyone and that can be my no people day.

Do you have to go out today or can you just stay at home? Can you rearranged what you need to do for the next few days so you can just sit and just be?

@Captain24 yay for being discharged, that's good news.

You've done so well to do the ironing and sealing the diamond arts again. Hopefully they'll be dry and you can do them later tonight.

That sounds like a good plan, it's so hard to get going first but once it starts coming together it feels easier. And yes the ones you're doing are very hard.

Thankyou sweet. I'm just hurt from all the services not being able or willing to help me. Being around people everyday is tough, hoping you enjoy spending time with your bestie tomorrow though.

I have already been out and have to go out again in the afternoon plus I have that party to go to tonight that I won tickets for that I was telling you about. It's a busy day today and I'm sore and exhausted already. I haven't done much, only the washing, dishes and had a shower but it's taken so much out of me.

I get that you’re hurt. That is understandable. @MissGremlin. There is only so

much you can do and so much you can take.

I didn’t realise that party is tonight. Is your friend going with you? What time is it? I hope you can let yourself relax and distract. It could be a lot of fun.

That is a lot when you are feeling the way you are. You did it though and didn’t leave it. I get it taking so much out of you. Maybe a nap is in order before you go out? Have you finished cooking?