I can’t cope

@Captain24 haha ewww to kids. Well yeah no comment on that one 😂.

See I've tried doing lists on my phone but it just frustrates me. I'll go through things over and over again to make sure I've got everything. The AuDHD is tough especially with forgetting things.

Things will go up and down, but it doesn't mean that you've gone backwards, it's just a tough time at the moment.

Well I'll be here to keep you company if you like ☺️.

Yes, it's just sitting in a nice quiet space and being snuggled up with soft blankets and for me Casper.

Haha there's actually no dots in my bed, there is a few on the floor though but not many at all. Like you'd be lucky to find 5 around the house i reckon 😂.

I’m glad it works for you. I just have that fear I’ve forgotten something. Meds for Pix are especially important now. I have the issue of feeling like I have forgotten something all the time. Even going to work when I have followed my routine so it’s right. I even have to put the cutlery on the food I want to take for dinners! 😂 I would forget them otherwise! @MissGremlin

My psychs words were ‘that’s the nature of the beast’ so comforting… not! 😜 I’m guessing any sort of progress is good. I haven’t gone right back just a few steps. But it’s just not easy.

Thanks for keeping me company. I’ll feed them dinner and then I’ll go have a shower and wait until 9. Then it’ll be straight to bed.

I love Jett being in the bed with me most of the time. He is a little snuggle buddy and has to be touching me. Pix lays where she wants to. It doesn’t matter if it’s in my way, she wants to lay there and will not move. If I pick her up and move her she growls at me!

I don’t know how you do it. I have so many everywhere! I’ve just stopped for now and I’m going to cook some dinner. I’m starving and apparently that’s not helpful! 😜

Have you had dinner yet?

@Captain24 Will reply to your post in a little bit. Just going to do dishes and start bedtime routine.

I think it’s great. I can read the writing. Stand away from it and it’ll look different. @MissGremlin

When someone gives it to her she will love it. She will see the meaning behind it.

@Captain24 I'm going to fiddle with it a bit tomorrow and see if I can make it look a bit better.

@Captain24 i always have the fear of forgetting something but thankfully i rarely do. Now see that just makes sense to put the cutlery on the food, I'd do the same.

Very comforting words 😂. Progress is progress no matter how small. I know it's not easy sweet, but you're doing well.

Happy to be here with you ☺️.

Haha cheeky Pix, she's such a character. Jett is a complete snuggle buddy.

If I drop one i pick it up, I can't stand not knowing where one has gone if I've dropped one 😂.

What's for dinner tonight? Nothing for me tonight.

She has a way with words! @MissGremlin. She has been there before and actually gets it. She hasn’t said anything during our psych appointments but she did when she was my facilitator when I was last in hospital. Before she became my psych.

She is stubborn and has her own mind! She doesn’t give up either! Jett loves snuggling. Whenever possible he has to be close to me, touching me or on me. Right now he is on the back of the lounge near my head.

I don’t know how you do that. I’m always dropping them or they are on the table. It’s a long way down to pick them up! 😜

I had fettuccine carbonara it was good. Plus I have leftovers.

Can you have a muesli bar or something?

@Captain24 that's the same with my counsellor, she's got bpd so gets it. It's really helpful when they genuinely get it and it's not just coming from textbooks or learning resources. I'm really glad that you've got her, she honestly sounds amazing.

She's a typical female then 😂. I reckon male dog's are more cuddly and insist on that closeness whereas females like their own space aswell. In saying that Laylah my last girl was always glued to me.

Haha I spend ages searching for them if I drop them 😂.

Ooohhh yummy and yay for having leftovers.

I'm just not hungry, there's things going on here at the moment and I'm too stressed (I'm safe). Almost time to hop in bed, just need to make an iced coffee and then set my diamond art up.

Sorry. I got stuck in to watching home and away. No doomscrolling either @MissGremlin. I didn’t realise the time until Pix’s alarm went off. I just gave her her 9pm tablet a little early. So now I’ve just gotten into bed.

It is helpful that they get it but also understand that it’s not one size fits all. My GP gets it but doesn’t understand that what worked for him isn’t necessarily going to work for me.

She is a typical female and she doesn’t like men. She is a female only dog except for my dad.

I can’t be bothered with that! You do so well to look for them. They hide in amongst the colours in my floor to though.

I hope your iced coffee was good. I just had a chocolate milk and if feels good in my belly. That sounds weird I know but it feels comforting.

@Captain24 no need to apologise sweet. I'm glad you were watching something and that it helped to pass the time without the doom scrolling. You did well giving Pix her tablet and I'm glad you're in bed now.

Yes that's the thing, what works for one doesn't always work for someone else.

The iced coffee is good. That doesn't sound weird at all, I actually totally get it.

I hope you can get a good night's sleep sweetheart ❤️