I can’t cope

I’ve only just woken up and that’s because mum rang me! @MissGremlin I got 9 hours.

When I went to bed we had had 6ml of rain and I just checked my phone and we ended up with 30! So that is awesome! It’s still not enough as we need a hell of a lot more and follow up rain would be good but it’s still helpful.

Im really tired and can’t really think straight. Hopefully that settles down soon.

How are you?

@Captain24 I'm glad you got a decent sleep.

That's definitely a good amount of rain but yes more would be good.

Hoping that as you get moving you start to wake up a bit.

Things are feeling really heavy for me today and I've only had 3 hours of sleep. My lungs are hurting and my body is sore, a combination of seizures and my body being tense from panic. Right now facing the day feels like too much and it scares me what it's going to be like. I have a doctors appointment at 9.30 but it's telehealth so I don't have to go in there. I'm safe for the moment and I'm about to head out soon but will only be out for a very short time.

I’m starting to function. I have Pixies meds all sorted and I can see the kitchen bench. Just have to clean it now. I think I’m in a roll. @MissGremlin.

I was going to bath the dogs but Pix had a sedation yesterday and it has come through her yet. She doesn’t react well to sedation and it comes through in her poop and it goes everywhere!

Ive got to go to the vet today to pick up her other med and then I might brave grocery shopping while I’m out! I have a psych appointment at 1 as well. Maybe I’ll be feeling all good by then.

Im sorry it’s all too much for you right now. I totally understand that feeling of facing the day. But we can get through it together. Telehealth is good as you don’t have to leave. With my psych I just make sure I have a decent looking top on. No bra, pj’s on the bottom and hair just pulled back. It’s great!!

I hope he can help with the seizures. Are you worried about having one while driving or do they only happen at night?

@Captain24 I'm glad you're starting to function and you're doing so well. I just did my dishes and put a load of washing in.

A bath might not be such a good idea until after that then, poor Pix. Nothing worse than when something upsets their tummies.

Going to the vets to pick up the med and then possibly braving the shops sounds like a good plan. Hoping your psych appointment goes ok today.

Just need to take today slowly and gently i think. Do you do video call with your psych or just a phone call? With my doctor it's just a phone call, no way could i do a video call 😂. But I'll be nice and comfy snuggled up with a blanket and Casper.

My seizures are nocturnal, it's very rare for me to have one during the day but I also have warning when they are going to happen and won't risk driving when I can feel one coming.

I just have to vacuum, wash the floors and hang the washing out and my house is clean. Then I’ll call into the vets and see if I can get a park to try and do some shopping. Then I want to try and clean out the plastics draw. It’s everywhere and not sorted! Tomorrow is suppose to be my rest day but I’ll bath the dogs and fully clean the laundry it needs a bit of work as there is dog hair everywhere! I usually just wipe down the benches. That way my list for today will be completed. @MissGremlin

Video call, all my Telehealth appointments are. I’m use to them now. I was really anxious at the start but I have been doing them for a couple of years. I was the first one for my psych and I think she now does a couple of them. She was anxious as well. Unsure of how to connect through a screen but we do and she can still tell my face and body language.

Slowly and gently sounds good. Maybe this afternoon we can do some diamond art together? I haven’t done any for a while.

Dishes and hanging the washing is a good start and at least you have done something.

Nocturnal is good, well it’s not at all good. I’m glad you have warning and know when it’s safe. It has been concerning me with how much driving you do.

@Captain24 you've done so well this morning sweet. Haha the plastics drawer, I have a cupboard like that, it's one you open chuck things in and shut it as quick as possible hoping nothing falls out before you get it shut 😂. Hopefully all goes well with bathing the dogs tomorrow and cleaning the laundry.

I could never, i mean I've done video calls with my online friend and thats hard enough 😂. I'm glad you can do it with your psych though and I'm sure it's helpful especially with being able to read body language.

I'm sitting and doing my diamond art at the moment, trying to finish the custom one. We might get to do some together or i might end up having a nap to try to get rid of this headache.

I hung up the washing and put the rest in the dryer so that's all done now. I have washing to fold but that can wait for another day.

Don't worry my doctor is aware and it's always monitored to make sure it's safe.

My house is clean! I feel better for it. Just about to hang the washing out, go and have a shower and head out to do my stuff. @MissGremlin Then I might tackle that draw!

A nap is fine. I could probably have one as well. I always end up really tired after a psych appointment. Will se what happens with bit of us. Work out a plan later!

Folding washing can wait. You have done enough especially with not feeling great. I’m glad you are sitting and chilling though.

That’s good. I do worry about you.

@Captain24 woohoo, well done sweet, super proud of you. Hoping all goes ok going out and good luck with tackling the drawer.

Yes will see what happens with a nap. I just finished the call with my doctor and that took alot out of me. Taking today one second at a time.

Yes the folding can wait, sitting and chilling is what's needed at the moment.

I just realised that I really should start packing for Melbourne soon being that I leave on Friday 😂.

I’ve been out and gotten my groceries, fuel and Pixies new meds. @MissGremlin $74 for the meds! At least they last for 50 days.

I’m guessing you talked about a lot of stuff with the doctor. I hope you are resting now. I get how much it takes out of you. I will feel the same after my appointment. I’m already really tired and want a nap!

How long are you going to Melbourne for, a week wasn’t it? If that was me, I’d be 3 parts packed by now! 😂 I need to be organised!

@Captain24 you did so well to get the shopping and Pixies new meds. That's not overly bad for that long of them but it's still a big cost.

I'm laying on my lounge, it was a heavy call about things that have happened and how the chance of getting support is now impossible. Really hoping your appointment goes ok and that you can get some rest after it.

I'll only be there for 2 nights. It's only a short trip to see the concert and meet a friend. I don't need to pack much and most of the things I use daily so can't pack until the last minute.