I can’t cope

@Captain24 i can understand stressing about sleep, but try to not focus on that right now sweet.

I'm glad they help you, it's awesome when something works. Lists just stress me out 😂.

It's getting there slowly, I've almost finished 2 sections. I'll pack it up once I've done this one though.

Hey @Captain24,

How are you today?

It sounds like the mix of self-care and medication has been really supportive for your nervous system. 🥰

Noticing enjoyment is huge and such a positive indicator that things are slowly shifting and changing.

Exhaustion makes a lot of sense - you have been through so much both physically and emotionally this year, so it may take a bit of time for your body to recalibrate (and that's okay!).

Is your safety plan still the same?

Awww that sounds lovely. What date is your birthday?!

And I am well, I spent some time with friends on the weekend, did some hospo work that I do casually, and went to hot pilates! (Remind me to drink water before I go next, pls. 😂🥵).

I’m about to feed the dogs and start on my list. Pix has her needle now and meds at 9. My GP appointment is at 11 and Pix has meds again at 2. But her next one isn’t until 7:30! I have one at 3 but I won’t take that and just sleep a little instead! @MissGremlin Just have to function until then!

It’s drizzling rain here today. It’s good soaking into the ground sort of weather. We need it to be heavier and a lot more though. You should see how excited the town is that we have rain forecast!

2 sections is a lot. You have done really well.

How did you sleep?

Morning @Captain24 sweet, hoping all the meds and appointment goes ok. Glad you've got your list of things to do and I hope it keeps you busy until you can have a sleep.

Yay for at least having some rain, hoping more comes your way.

Sleep was rough last night but I woke up feeling okayish, then had a few things go wrong. But wanted to stop the spiral, think I managed to as I got through to a radio competition and got put live on air 😂. Going to have something to eat and then sit and do some diamond art i reckon.

How's things feeling for you?

I’m waiting for my appointment now. It looks like he is on time @MissGremlin.

Ive done a lot of doom scrolling, I just don’t have the energy. I have changed my sheets and doona cover though. The sheets are in the dryer and the doona cover is washing. I have had a shower and washed my hair. But that’s all I have done. Hopefully I can get stuff done after this.

I am so proud of you!!! Wanting to stop the spiral. Awesome about being live in air! Did you win? That has to be a highlight.

Diamond art sounds good. Hopefully you finish it!

@Captain24 oohhh that's good if he's on time.

You've done well to change the bedding sweet, hopefully after your appointment you can get some other things done but it's also ok to rest if you need to.

Awww thankyou sweet. It's for a birthday party where you have the chance of winning money on the night. It's just a bit of fun and you never know i might get lucky to win. So I won tickets to the party and then have a chance to win on the night.

Hoping I can finish it. Getting a bit distracted at the moment and losing focus.

So far he is only 10 minutes late. @MissGremlin.

I want to get my house clean and get the towels washed too. Hopefully by then it’ll be time for Pixies meds at 2 and I can go to bed.

That sounds really cool. I would love to see you win!!! What can we do to help you find some focus?

@Captain24 hopefully not much longer then.

It would be good to get things done and then have a sleep.

It would be awesome to win, will have to see what happens.

The focus is tough, I have a movie on while I'm trying to do the diamond art but my mind is wandering.

He wouldn’t do a MHCP apparently Medicare doesn’t do them anymore or something. @MissGremlin

Im about to go to bed for a while. I’ve just rushed Pix to the vet and the stupid vet I got wouldn’t listen to me. She then told one of Pix’s vets what I had said and instead of sending me home with pain relief. Pix is now in hospital overnight with blood tests x 2 and probably an ultrasound. Lucky the vet was in surgery and was onsite! I wasn’t bringing her home with how rapidly she crashed. I know something is wrong and that stupid vet didn’t believe me. The other vet knows I know what I’m talking about! I’m a little angry right now. Pix is crying in pain.

@Captain24 oh sweet, I'm sorry to hear about Pix. I'm glad you got her to the vet and that the vet that knows you was on-site. Hope you are getting some rest, thinking of you and will chat to you after. Sending lots of love and hugs ❤️.