I can’t cope

I can try but I don’t think she will understand. @MissGremlin. It is so so so much worse. I just want to cry. I shouldn’t have called it up to my boss. I should have just left it. It didn’t feel that bad going in. I guess I’ll just have to wait until work rings me tomorrow and see what she said.

@Captain24 hoping Pix will understand so that you don't have to bend over. I'm sorry you're in so much pain. Sending you love and hugs ❤️

I managed to do it. I’ve just taken a stack of pain relief @MissGremlin

Hows the diamond art coming along?

@Captain24 you did well for doing it sweet. Hoping the pain relief helps you.

It's getting there slowly. Did a little bit of the custom one today and now I'm working on the other one.

I’m glad you did some today. It sounds like it has been a pretty tough day. I hope it helped with distraction. @MissGremlin

Doing some now is good.

Did you sleep okish last night?

. I’m just sitting here not knowing what to do. I’d really like to go to hospital and get an injection for my back but with the meds I’ve just taken I can’t have it. Stupid me.

@Captain24 I've only been doing it to keep myself safe though there's been moments that I've failed there (I'm safe).

I'm trying to focus on it now but it's hard.

I'm not sleeping much, it's just constant nightmares everytime I doze off.

That sucks that you can't go to hospital to get an injection cos of the meds you've taken.

At least it’s there to help even though not always @MissGremlin Sometimes is better than no times.

What can I do to help?

Nightmares must be so hard. Are they ransom or are they memories?

I just found some heavy duty pain meds but I’d have to declare them and you can drive heavy machinery on them.

@Captain24 you're here sweet and that means alot.

They are mostly random, it's only occasionally that they are of memories.

Oh that's tough with the pain meds, have the others helped at all?

Nothing is helping! I just had a hot shower and just ran the water in my back but it didn’t do anything. @MissGremlin The physio told me to lay down. So I’m in bed but it’s not helping. I’m sweating with pain.

At least they are random. Do you remember them when you wake up? Or just that you know it happened?

I don’t dream very often but sometimes I wake up and remember that I dreamt but not the actual dream.

@Captain24 that sucks that nothing is helping. I'm hoping something helps to ease the pain for you soon sweet.

I remember them when I first wake up in a panic and often go straight back into the same nightmare. But sometimes by morning time I can't remember the details.