I can’t cope

@Captain24 omg the Woolworths mudcake is the best, even better with whipped cream 😋. I've never been a fan of fruitcake but that's cos it's linked to trauma growing up.

Limiting the doom scrolling sounds like a good idea. You're doing so well sweet and it's just about bedtime. I'm sitting on my bed now with my diamond art.

It is @MissGremlin. That’s what my birthday cake will be.

My fruitcake recipe is my great-grandmother’s recipe.

I’ve been doom scrolling a bit. 5 minutes until I can get their food sorted.

I just got an email saying that there is no forums between 10 and 12 tomorrow.

@Captain24 a perfect birthday cake, make sure you save me a slice 😂.

Awww it's a special recipe then.

Yay for it being time to get the dogs food sorted.

Yes I'm a little worried about that, I know it's only 2 hours but still that's time where I can't be connected.

I will, I’ll even microwave it for 30 seconds for you @MissGremlin

It is special, the first Christmas I had in this house I made it.

Im worried too. I’ve been on here every morning. I guess we just have to deal with it. I’ll be picking up my phone constantly and then remember that I can’t.

Im going to go and have a shower and go to bed. I’m so tired and these thoughts won’t stop and I have no control over them. I’ve been doing ok with them for the last few days. But not now.

Talk tomorrow except between 10-12

@Captain24 oohhh yay, so yummy 😋.

That's so special, I'm glad you've got the recipe so you can make it and it's a beautiful memory to have.

It's definitely going to be tough, but know that I'll still be sitting with you even if we can't chat for a bit.

Hope once you've had a shower that you can get some sleep sweet. You've done so well today, I'm super proud of you. Sending so much love and hugs sweetheart ❤️.

This is so, so good to read. @Captain24

What I am hearing is that this creating this space of more ease and self-compassion has allowed you to feel more regulated. Is that right?

I really, really like the 'one thing' approach. That truly takes the pressure off and helps us to challenge some of our 'all or nothing' thinking/behaviours. Did your psychologist suggest this?

Oh my gosh!! That is very scary. I would have been terrified too. Cameras are a good idea. Are you feeling okay tonight?

Awww, I am really happy to hear she bought you something too. That is so considerate.

Are you feeling a bit closer with mum at the moment? It certainly sounds like it. 💛

I couldn’t find Jett this morning. @AuntGlow @MissGremlin @tyme @Jynx

@Captain24 awww look at him all snuggled up 😍

He must have been cold to put himself there. @MissGremlin. I was doing diamond art and he wasn’t on the back of the lounge or in one of the beds. I went and got a drink and turned around and I found him there.

I forgot I have to go back to work tomorrow! So I had to stop doing diamond art and go shopping and put my washing on! Now I need to make my lunches and clean the house. I should be done but about 11. I also need to shower and wash my hair. Oops. My cruisy day just turned into panic!

How are you going?

@Captain24 at least he found a nice cozy spot to lay.

Deep breaths sweet, you've got this ❤️.

I'm actually really worried about those 2 hours today where the forums will be down. Last night was really rough, I'm hoping today is an easier day than yesterday.