I can’t cope

Morning @Captain24 sweet, how are you feeling?

Morning @MissGremlin.

Im pretty tired. I’ve been doing diamond art since about 6:30. Just sorted out all my meds for the week. I take 19 tablets a day now. That includes magnesium and vitamin D though. I’ve fed the dogs and I’m about to go back to my diamond art.

Im really low and down and out still but I guess it’ll take time. I started the new dose of my other med today so it should take effect in the next couple of days.

How are you?

@Captain24 that's alot of tablets but hoping the new dose helps. I'm sorry you didn't get enough sleep last night but you're doing well to be focusing on your diamond art.

Things are feeling really heavy today, it's a hard day for me given what day it is. I just had a cuppa and I'm sitting in bed with Casper.

It’s heaps! But at this stage they are keeping me alive. Without them I wouldn’t be here @MissGremlin

Im nearly finished it. Mum said she hasn’t really seen much of it so I’m going to hide it when I finish.

I’ve gone through some really old photos and found a good one of mums other dog and my old dog. So I want to give mum that one for Christmas. I just have to keep it covered so she doesn’t see it. I said I wanted an ocean one thinking more printed but now I’ve decided to use my own photos! I won’t order any for a while though. I still have all these ones to do. But I’m a little excited.

Im trying to be mindful of what I say today. I can understand the pain of the day and there will be lots of triggers on here and all around you. But one thing to remember is that Casper loves you as his mum try and focus on that. I got a post of Facebook from my dogs as I’m their mum.

@Captain24 I'm glad they are doing the job.

That's so exciting that you're almost finished it, I'm sure your mum is going to love it.

Using your own photos is a brilliant idea and makes them even more special.

Awww that's so cool that you got a post on Facebook, they are such lucky furbabies to have you as their mum.

She will love it. It turned out awesome!

@MissGremlin

She is going to love the one of Misha too. I’ll do it for Christmas but keep it covered so she can’t see it.

I have a few photos in my diamond art folder so I’ll go through them later. The one I’m about to start is Pixie on a rock. That’s what was left in the box.

Im here all day except at dinner time. For about 2 hours if that

Here it is the sand and her hair are all the same 3 colours but it worked out. So don’t stress too much about yours

This is the 40x30 on the 40x50 to show you the size

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@Captain24 that looks awesome, such a beautiful dog 😍. Doing one of Misha for Christmas will be such a special gift for your mum.

Awww one of Pixie on a rock sounds so cute.

Hoping you enjoy going to dinner tonight.

You can really see the size difference between them, that's crazy.

That is amazing!!!! @MissGremlin I love it. You are so creative. Mine are just boring old photos. 😂

This rock entirely surrounds Pix and is a multitude of colours. Could take a while! It will look pretty cool when it’s done and it’s an awesome pic of Pix but she is really photogenic.

What are you up to right now? I’ve started this on and trying to talk myself to go into town and buy the other pillow. I’m feeling a little calm which is weird. Just taking the day as it comes.

@Captain24 ahh but those photos hold special memories and I don't think they are boring at all.

Oohhh lots of colours, chopping and changing between them is always fun 😂. Pix is just adorable, as is Jett of course.

I'm laying in bed, there's been lots of tears today. I tried to make some stars earlier to keep distracted but only managed one. Heading into town to get another pillow sounds good, nothing like a nice comfortable pillow. I get that it's a weird feeling, just take each moment as it's comes sweet.

I thought the grass was hard this is worse! There is no way that I’ll get through it with out missing dots! 😂 @MissGremlin

Pixie is really pretty. She has a sweet face. Jett is cute but just not in the same way.

Im sure there is many tears. It would have to be one of the hardest days. I’m with you though. What else can you try for distraction?

I should get dressed and go. The motivation is hard though. I’m enjoying (I know!) sitting here just doing it and nothing else.

It is really weird but I’ll just go with it. Keep it while I can. Maybe it’s a good sign.