I can’t cope

I haven’t had a decent pillow in years @MissGremlin. Maybe a comfortable pillow will help with sleeping properly.

I have done extremely well. The biggest thing was the shower and scrubbing it and the ensuite floor. I just took it easy after that and did things as I could be bothered to. I will have to clean the kitchen though when I’m finished dinner. At least there is only one dish to wash up! My house smells really good though, the roast beef and the veggies. I’ve made enough to feed a family of 6! 😂 but at least I can eat it for dinner for the next few nights and don’t have to worry about anything and it’s healthy!

Id like to finish it tonight but I don’t think I will. I will get it done in the morning though and start on the next one!

Im sorry you are feeling that way. A hot chocolate sounds yummy and comforting though. What are you having for dinner?

Hello @MissGremlin @Captain24 ,

Ive caught up on the previous posts.

@MissGremlin , I'm sorry to hear that it's a difficult time at the moment with everything that's happening. It must be difficult to reach out to a webchat, only to be asked to phone instead. I've mentioned before that I'm not a talker either. I prefer text. Then again, I guess they may feel they are more able to meet your need over the phone than by chat. At least you are not 'banned' from using their service, right?

@Captain24 , is that parrot image a finished diamond art? Or it is just the print? What's been happening for you? I read that you had a chiro appt, you did a lot of shopping, and caught up on sleep! When's your next work shift?

@Captain24 hoping it helps you to sleep properly.

I'll be there soon for some yummy roast beef and veggies 😂. It's definitely a healthy meal and such a bonus having leftovers.

I've got to pick a new one to start, then I'll do that one plus the custom one. I take my time with the custom one as it brings up alot of emotions. What one are you going to start once you've finished that one?

I felt like something warm so a hot chocolate seemed like a good idea but I'm struggling to drink it. I'm not hungry today.

Hello @tyme, whilst I'm not banned, i may aswell be. It's also incredibly hard to talk with Casper around as he picks up on my emotions when I'm on calls and then doesn't settle. It's gone from being able to reach out 4 nights a week to maybe once a fortnight if I'm lucky. From where I sit it genuinely feels like they just want to get rid of me and that's really come across loud and clear.

Good evening wonderful human! @Captain24

How are you? ✨

And how are little Pix and Jett?

🥰

Maybe it's not to 'get rid' of you even if it feels like it.

Sometimes, while someone is leaning on a walking stick, they don't need to practice walking - this is what I learnt. I had to focus on widening my window of tolerance and extending the time before reaching for help. It's definitely not easy, but it's a the way to make change.

I hear it's hard. I hear the pain is real. Hang in there. I hope Casper is able to keep you grounded @MissGremlin

Hey @tyme

Up the rosella is finished, framed and hanging in my hall way! It’s the first one I did for myself.

I go to work on Wednesday. I’m struggling a fair bit but I have had med increases from the pic yesterday so we will see how that goes. It’s not as dangerously dark as it was though. Just dark.

I have another Chiro appointment on Monday. My back doesn’t feel to bad just when I’m working.

Im guessing you read I’m cooking myself a baked dinner! Pretty proud of myself and of everything I have accomplished today.

How are you going?

@tyme if you saw the interactions I've had and some of the things they've said, you'd see why I feel it.

We already extended the time, I used to reach out every night and then we reduced it to once every other day. But to just be cut completely unless I can ring when they know the barriers to doing so is unfair.

Anyway nothing i can do. My feelings or opinions around it don't matter to them at all.

Thankyou. Casper does well to help me.

Is your baked dinner the roast beef? I'm waiting for my sister to make pasta for tonight. She's out with the kids tonight but will come home and cook.

Did I tell you I had about 20 people over last week? A family from interstate came so I just invited others over. @Captain24 It was more an obligation to be honest. At least it was done and I recovered lol.

Do you feel the meds have made a difference? I hope you can get out of this dark period soon.

Hey @AuntGlow

I think I may get there eventually, things aren’t great but a little better than they were and I have med increases so we will see what happens.

Ive accomplished so much today. I’ve changed my bedlinen, washed, dried it and packed it away. I’ve scrubbed my shower, shower screen and ensuite floor. I’m just finishing off cooking a baked dinner. I’ve been grocery shopping and general shopping. Now I’m about to eat and then go back to my diamond art! I got a new pillow today and love it!

Pix and Jett are doing well. They stayed at my mums overnight while I was on nightshift. My aircon wasn’t working and when it was 2 degrees it was just too cold for them. Mum took them walking both mornings and the morning walk is double the length of the night walk that they are use to. The first morning Pix made it all the way without getting tired. She was still full of energy. The second morning she slowed down so they asked her if she wanted to get in the pram and she just sat by it. After 5 montage wanted out but they made her wait 15 and then she was recharged and in the go again. It’s so so good to see as previously she struggles to walk around the block!

How have you been. Haven’t seen you for a little while.