I can’t cope

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@Captain24 wrote:

You’ll have your nieces and nephew I think @tyme. I’m sure they will stay around however my niece and I had a good relationship and not now.

But yes it’s only a few years of aloneness not a lifetime full of baggage!

How was your day?

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I'm really enjoying life because I can be free to do what I want. I really don't want to be hemmed in with screaming kids. Don't get me wrong, I love kids, but I need my space.

However, I have thought about old age and what will happen. I'm sure my niblings will have their own life, so I don't depend on them.

I'll just have to go to a retirement village and find other folk there lol. Or I'll grow old with the peeps on the forums hahaha.

Although, that said, my neice said she was bragging to her school friends that she had 'the best aunty' lol. So that was cute. She was telling me that yesterday when she was over. But she also told her friends that I was very strict.

Or you, Miss Gremlin and I will just have to grow old-er together lol. I'm fine with that @Captain24

I’m home from work. My back is absolutely k!lling me. It’s so sore I can barely stand up straight.

We got a little bit of rain today and it made all the roads slippery. I got stuck driving up a ramp and couldn’t keep going up it but I also couldn’t reverse down as it was just sliding down as well. Had to get a little bit of help. I slide sideways down so many ramps. It was ridiculous. We really need the rain but there wasn’t much in it at all. Maybe a couple of mil if that. Now there is no rain forecast for the next 10 days at least.

Hello @Captain24 sweet, I'm sorry your back is so sore. Have you got something you can take for it to help so you can get some sleep tonight?

I'm glad you got a bit of rain, though it can make things very slippery. At least you got some help to get up the ramp.

Sending you love and hugs sweetheart ❤️.

I have some heavy duty anti-inflammatories that I’m about to take. @MissGremlin They last for 24 hours. Hopefully that helps. Mum is making me a Chiro appointment tomorrow for Wednesday morning.

It was interesting, no one was allowed on that ramp after they got me up it. It was pretty wild with how little rain we had. I think the surfaces just turned straight to mud since they have been so dry for so long. It’s been 8 weeks since we had any rain at all out there.

It’s been a really long day

@Captain24 hoping they kick in soon for you sweet so you can be comfortable. Glad your mum is making a chiro appointment for you too, hopefully that helps to relieve the pain.

It only takes a little bit of rain to turn what's usually a solid surface to a slippery mess.

I can relate to it being a long day. Hoping you can get a good night's sleep sweetheart ❤️.

I hope so too @MissGremlin

It looks like we have had a massive down pour all day! It’s wild.

Im about to go and have a shower and go to bed so I can do it all again tomorrow. It was so hard to get myself going this morning. I really didn’t want to do it. I was scared to go. I did ask one of the guys at work if he took my jacket incase it was a prank but he didn’t.

Sorry it’s been a long day for you. How did you go with the house inspection stuff

@Captain24 a shower and then bed sounds perfect, i managed a shower this morning though it was a tough one (will save it for another day to tell you). Can imagine it would have been hard to go today but you did it and I'm so proud of you. Shame it wasn't just a prank with your jacket but hopefully you get a new one soon sweet.

I emailed the land agent to cancel the inspection, I couldn't manage it at all. She is annoyed but I'm getting a doctors note to send her tomorrow so she can just get over herself.

I’m in bed and really tired so if I don’t respond to you it means I’m asleep. 4:30 comes around pretty quick! @MissGremlin

Tell me about the shower… I’m not curious. I’ll see if I’m the morning and respond tomorrow night. I should be around longer tomorrow night if I’m not too sore and exhausted. Tired from concentrating so hard! Trying to keep the truck on the road not crash into the sides.

Im glad you cancelled if that’s what you needed to do. A Dr certificate sounds like a good idea. Maybe you can try and gently start tackling those rooms so it’s not as overwhelming as it was now. Just gently and slowly. That way they will be done.

@Captain24 hoping you can fall asleep quickly, know how quick 4.30 comes around.

When I was in the shower I suddenly sort of panicked and didn't feel clean after what happened the other day and events yesterday. I ended up washing my body and hair twice and even that didn't feel like enough. It was a bit scary and not something that's ever happened before. Concentrating takes so much energy so it's understandable that you feel so tired.

I'm going to try to do little bits when I can, I didn't do anything today cos I'm not 100% at the moment, feel like i have a bit of a cold. I know she's not going to give me long before she reschedules.

I’m still awake and in pain. I’ve just taken more pain relief that I can take with th other one @MissGremlin

I totally get that dirty feeling. It happened to me after my SA. I showered so many times but still couldn’t get it off me.

Im glad you are going to try. It’ll just make things easier at the time.

I going to try for sleep. I just got up for a little bit and hopefully that works.