I can’t cope

@Captain24 yes, the dryer leaves them feeling nice and soft.

All that really needs to be done in there is pick up the craft stuff on the floor and then vacuum. I won't vacuum until just before the inspection though.

I'm trying to do my best with the rest of the house but I'm struggling. I had a seizure last night so I'm really feeling blah today which is making doing anything so much harder.

I rarely even get to wear my pjs but I do have an oodie dressing gown aswell as a normal oodie, they are so nice and warm to wear. I only have heating in the loungeroom and it doesn't do a great job of heating the area as there's a huge archway that lets the heat escape. I have an electric blanket on my bed and use that to warm up the bed before I get it. Luckily I don't really feel the cold too much. So exciting that your birthday is coming up, does that make it the 24th?.

Things are feeling really heavy but keeping connected here is helping as a bit of a distraction.

How's things feeling for you sweetheart?

Craft stuff should be easy shouldn’t it? Something that you can leave until later as you use it? @MissGremlin

What else do you have to do? How many rooms?

Another seizure, that’s becoming pretty common at the moment. Isn’t that a concern?

I have my room cold to sleep. Getting in is a bit cold but I sleep so much better especially in the weather. Nights are too cold in winter so I need my room warmer and nightshift when it’s 40+ outside makes it easier to sleep during the day. It’s always at one temperature.

Not having much heating is hard. I wouldn’t cope. I have an oodie onesie as well. I only have a cheap normal one. But it’s warm. I think the lounge sets would be better though as it’s just like pj’s but a lot warmer. I’m in pjs a lot. Sometimes I’m in them all day. I’ll get changed to go out and put them back in when I get home. Depends on how cold it is though. If it’s too cold I live in trackies and a hoodie. That’s what I wore up the street this morning with my Ugg boots!

Yes the 24th. I don’t get excited though. I’ll be at work and it’ll just be another day. I just want my soda stream! 😂

Im hoping the connection helps you through.

Im not feeling great but just sitting doing diamond art. Mum and dad have just been so now I have no one and nothing that needs to be done. I’ve had to put some music on quietly while I do my diamond art though to try and stop the thoughts coming through too bad. I don’t like noise so it has to be soft.

@Captain24 yeah the craft stuff isn't much to deal with. Thinking of trying to get a container for the stuff that i keep in my room.

It's a 3 bedroom house, my room and the other room that is used are both basically done other than a general tidy up. The loungeroom really just needs a general tidy, the dining area sucks as it's trashed. The other areas, kitchen, bathroom, toilet, laundry, won't take much to do really.

The seizures happen more often when I'm too stressed and not sleeping much.

The weather can have such a big impact on how we sleep. Winter is easier for me to sleep, summer is just sticky and the humidity really gets to me.

It can be hard but i just sit with a blanket on me to keep warm and heat up my wheat bag if I get really cold. I love my hoodies, actually get annoyed when I can't wear them cos its too hot 😂. I have to get up every morning and go out and then go out again in the afternoon so don't really get a chance to lounge around in trackies or pjs.

I get that it's just another day but it's still a special day ☺️.

I'm sorry you're not feeling great, but I'm here with you sweet. I'm glad you've got your diamond art and some music playing quietly. The ex has just left here, I'm feeling so tired but I have to head out at 2.30 so not sure it's worth me trying to rest for a bit.

That sounds pretty much under control @MissGremlin. Just the dining area. You still have a couple of days for that. Just take it slowly.

Somehow we need to change that but I have no idea on how to. If I ever think of anything I will always let you know.

It does, for me now with ducted though it’s much easier. But my depression always gets worse in the cold. I really struggle with it.

I don’t leave the house often enough to worry! 😜 If I do it’s not very long. I was out for a while this morning though. It was just over an hour.

Im glad he has finished and has left. There’s really not much time for you to rest. Maybe when you come back? I get the feeling tired, you just have so much going on in your life. I wouldn’t cope with it all. Simon my eyes you are inspiring.

@Captain24 I've just crumbled into a heap after getting a message from my daughter through my mother's Facebook account. I really have no words right now but just don't want to sit alone. I'm safe for now and just laying on my lounge with Casper with lots of tears.

I’m so sorry @MissGremlin. You’re not alone I’m here. Do you want to talk about it? What can you do in this moment? Just laying and holding Casper sounds good.

@Captain24 i can't even say much on here which makes it so hard.

I’m so sorry @MissGremlin. That’s just hurtful. It must be so hard to be treated like that especially from your own daughter. I guess you don’t have a very good relationship with her? Only say what you want.

Im sorry this has happened to you. A simple no would have been easier. I don’t know what to say other that I’m here with you.

@Captain24 not anymore i don't. Wasn't like this just over a year ago. It really does hurt so much.

Thankyou for being here sweet.

How old is she? @MissGremlin. What has happened in the last 12 months? Same again only say what you want.