I can’t cope

I get that it must be so hard @MissGremlin. My MH wasn’t too bad at the time it was before my world fell apart completely.

I ordered take away and was shaking when I left the house. So I’m scared to be here but scared to leave. It’s making things so much worse. So much worse.

How did you cope this afternoon?

@Captain24 being in that space of wanting so badly to have things in order but just not being able to manage getting things in order really is hard.

Oh sweet, i know it is incredibly hard and scary. I wish it didn't happen cos I know how much of an impact it has on you when your private space has been invaded by someone.

I have struggled, I did share a post on my thread. Wanted to keep this space for you at the moment.

Feel free to share whatever you need to!! @MissGremlin

I did popover to read. That’s really hard. I can even begin to imagine the pain you are going through. Both of them the same way. It’s just so sad and heartbreaking that that’s what it came to for them.

@Captain24 thankyou sweet. I just know that sometimes the things I share can be triggering which is why i posted it in my thread.

They were both so close to each other so I can see why it happened but it's completely heartbreaking. Then what happened with the ex really hurt and left me so shaken. It's just been a long and hard day and thoughts are hitting really hard. I'm safe and I'm almost done with my routine so I can sit in bed and do something.

It’s all good. Just want you to know that this is an open safe space for you as well. @MissGremlin

It must have been so hard for her, especially if they were really close.

Is what happened something you can or want to talk about or I’m I reading between the lines again?

Im glad you can sit soon and just relax.

@Captain24 thankyou sweet, I truly appreciate it.

I did say it on my thread and it was edited out but I think you're pretty good at reading between the lines about it.

I'm sitting on my bed now with Casper. Just taking a moment to try to catch my breath and see if I can focus on doing my diamond art or stars.

How's things feeling for you sweetheart?

I did wonder what was edited out. Yep.. reading. @MissGremlin. Another between the lines. When you sometimes say something happened at your place is it the same thing? Please don’t answer if you don’t want to, I’m not intruding just trying to help you better.

I hope you can focus on them. I’m still doing my diamond art. Scared stupid.

TW: Suicide ideation

@Captain24 sometimes it's the same thing, other times it's just alot of screaming that goes on. I can't really say much more about it. It's even worse that he has to come back tomorrow to do more work cos it couldn't all be done in one day.

I'm glad you have your diamond art to do but can understand being scared.

I know it makes those thoughts so much stronger but know that you're not alone sweet, I'm here with you. I know it might be tough tonight to settle after what's happened today plus the other thoughts but try to focus on the fact that you've taken measures to ensure that it doesn't happen again. Given that a jacket was taken I'm thinking it's either kids being silly or a homeless person that is feeling the cooler weather at the moment.

Hey @Captain24 just added a TW for you just so you know 😉

I'm sorry to hear things are really rough at the moment, what's been going on that has you feeling so unsettled?

That’s a shame that it’s all happening again tomorrow @MissGremlin. Thanks for sharing, it just gives me an idea that’s all.

There’s really no homeless out here. We are 5 kms out of town and a brand new area. My house is one of the oldest and it’s only 5 years old, it’s also quite an expensive area. I think the kids would be at school and hanging around the streets more. The front door was open and the dogs didn’t really react all day except for when people across the road went to their cars. I don’t know what happened or why.

Thanks for being here with my thoughts. I know it’s pretty tough for you too though.