I can’t cope

That’s funny. He just wants to be with you! My dogs are around and go off in their own but do not cope if they can’t get to me. @MissGremlin. Or if I leave to house for 5 minutes. When I whipper snipper I have to shut them inside as Jett likes to chase it! The pair of them just sit at the door watching me. Since everything is open all the time and they can come and go as they please. The second a door is shut that is usually open they are wanting to go there!

I can see it’s hard. I wish you weren’t but it’s ok if that’s what you need. I have thought about calling in the past myself. But now it’s been so long I don’t even care.

@Captain24 haha Casper loves to try to chase the whipper snipper too 😂. They really do have such a connection with us, it's very special.

I'm almost finished this one room, I got a bit stuck for a minute and started panicking but I've managed to calm myself down and focus again.

Well done! That is huge. Is it a scary room? Or a regular one. I’m so glad that you have almost managed it. I’m proud of you!! @MissGremlin

@Captain24 it's not a scary room, well not anymore. This room used to be a huge trigger, for 13 months i couldn't bring myself to go in it cos of the situation. But I'm in this room every day now 😂. Thankyou sweet, I'm just doing my best to get things done.

That’s amazing progress @MissGremlin. Maybe the other room will eventually not be that hard. I’m hoping for you anyway. Just being able to use it everyday is good.

Im cheering you on!

@Captain24 haha oh maybe, just maybe. I'm trying not to think about that room 😂. Only 2 rooms in this house get used even though I really need that other room but it's not a big room and it's not even possible to step foot in there at the moment.

Thankyou ❤️

There’s two bedrooms in here that I don’t use just chuck shit in! I do need to work on them though. One day. @MissGremlin I only clean my room and the main areas, I don’t go in there so there is no need to clean them. When I do sort them out I do clean them or get random moments when I just feel the need to!

I had a garage like that at my old house. It was overwhelming and full of old furniture and boxes of stuff that I had from the first time I moved out of home! 20 years earlier! But moving into here made me go through it all. Just one step in the door at a time. Eventually it got easier to do more than a couple of things. Moving the furniture around was hard though. But eventually I got it empty and no longer have must crap handing around. I just kept the staff that I wanted and gave away the rest. If you can manage to do it even with the overwhelm it will feel better in the end. Focus on the fact that you will be able to use that room!

I’ve been sitting and doing my diamond art since about 11. I do it on the dining table at right next to the back doors to outside. I had 3 dogs for the day. I put my work jumpers on the line at about 1. I haven’t left the diamond art, I didn’t go to bed, I’ve been outside having smokes, the dogs have been outside. The front door is open and the dogs bark at anyone that walks by.

I go to get my washing off the, some arsehole stole my work jumper off the line! Someone came into my yard while I was sitting near the back door with 3 dogs, considering two are chihuahuas and bark at everything and someone came into and stole my jacket. The line is around the corner a bit but that’s not the point. Someone came into my yard without me or the dogs knowing and stole my jacket.

Im p!ssed off that they stole it as I need it but it also scares me that they got in while I was home. I’m not even safe in my own house. It was broad daylight. I no longer feel safe at all. I have put my garbage bins in front of the gate and I’m going to go and buy a padlock. I feel violated and really struggling with anxiety around it. The dogs have been outside most of the afternoon. I’m shaking and feel scared and like I’m being watched. I’m not feeling safe at all. Does that mean they could come into my house? Does that mean they are watching me? What does it mean?

@Captain24 oh sweet, that's so scary and unsettling. I'm so sorry that it's happened.

@Captain24 sorry I disappeared earlier sweet, things got tough here.

I have one room that's just been used for storage, a few years ago it was actually neat and usable but not anymore. It's gone from being a storage room to being usable to now being a storage room again but not even being accessible.

I have a shed that's also full of stuff and there's boxes that have been packed since i first moved out of home 25ish years ago. I have gone through some but it's hard cos there's alot of memories/trauma within those boxes.