I can’t cope

I just got the third dog. Sat down and all three are on me. @MissGremlin Im going to go out and get some dog food shortly too. Need to get it before they sell out again.

@Captain24 I'm glad you've got that friend from hospital, I know it can be hard to call people in those moments. But even messaging her would be a good idea.

Can imagine it would be harder having the 3 of them around. It's perfectly ok to take it easy today, you've just come off of night shift so just do what you can when you feel up to it.

Being drained is hard, I've just gotten back home and done the dishes. I feel like i could just lay down and fall asleep, I've been hit with a wave of emotions too so things aren't feeling great here at the moment (I'm safe). I need to clean though so I'm going to try to work on an area and see how i go.

I’m lucky to have her. I just Facebook message and then she can get back to me when she is ready. She hasn’t been released from hospital yet as since she has left her husband she has nowhere to live and can’t release her without an address. It’s private though so she is in a good place to deal with it all. @MissGremlin

I did the dog food shopping and managed to get it all for me and mum. They get deliveries Wednesday and so you need to get in quick. Lots of dog owners buy the prime 100 dog food here.

Keiko is easy. The three of them just play and she lives my house and being here so there is no stress. She just wanders around or climbs in there beds and has a nap. She loves laying outside in the sun. She just makes herself at home.

I put a load of washing on and now have to hang it out. Then I’ll put my work jumpers in to soak and then that’s all my washing up to date. After being out I feel a tiny little bit more motivated.

I can understand the emotions. It’s a heavy day. Maybe with cleaning you can write a list and just do a couple of things off it. Easy or hard, whatever you feel you can manage in the moment. I love my lists as I can see what I have done and what is still to do. Then I just do what I feel is comfortable next.

Im thinking of you today (well everyday) but especially today. Im around all day today. I won’t leave the house again while I have Keiko. Since she isn’t my dog I’d rather be around with her.

@Captain24 I'm glad your friend is in hospital and safe, hoping that she can find somewhere to live soon though.

Yay for being able to get the dog food, sounds like a very popular food.

Awww Keiko just fits right in, I'm glad that she's so comfortable there.

That's great that you're feeling a little bit more motivated after going out. You've done so well to get out and get the dog food and do a load of washing, really proud of you.

I don't follow lists, I just do things as I go. Lists actually overwhelm me cos then I panic about how much there is to do. Trying to hold myself together but I'm struggling, going to start working on one of the rooms here.

Thankyou sweet, I'm glad you're around today and know that I'm here for you too ❤️.

I hope they help get her somewhere. I don’t want her to go to her daughter’s house as that stressful too. I even told her that. I’m pretty straight forward! 😂 @MissGremlin

It’s highly recommended and the vet was glad Pix was on it. They even found out which proteins were best for diabetes and pancreatitis.

She does. It’s so easy having her. I’ll have her anytime as mum and dad have mine all the time.

I’ve done a couple of little things. Like fold all the bed linen from yesterday and the dogs towels. I’m thinking I’ll go and see how I go with the ironing. Then I have to unpack the dishwasher!

I love my lists and couldn’t function without them. Plus it’s the only way I don’t forget things! 😂 It’ can get I overwhelming though. I have 3 pages but I write down the little things as well. Like unpack my lunchbox. It’s all just general little things but I also like to put on it something around the house. This week it’s to clean the shower thoroughly and the screen.

I get the being careful. It’s ok if you aren’t here much. I’ll be here when you are ready and especially need to talk. I hope you can get even a little bit sorted. It’ll feel like an achievement as apposed to everyday things.

Im thinking of you.

That is so not nice @MissGremlin.

8 years is a long time to still have him in your life. I’m sorry he is so demanding and disrespectful. I guess there is many reasons just sometimes an other one pops up and you remember why. I hope he isn’t too much of an arsehole while doing your lawn.

I’ll be careful how I respond as vague as possible @MissGremlin

Ive heard stuff like that from a lot of people. I get what you are saying. It’s also hard to escape when things may change.

I get that reason. I also understand it. Sometimes it is just what it is and can’t get it from anywhere else.

All good on the posts. You don’t need people seeing them. I am glad that you trust me and feel safe enough to be able to talk about it. Just to get it out to someone.

@Captain24 thankyou sweet for understanding and being here. It's a really tricky situation to be in and one i wish I wasn't.

Poor Casper is whining cos he can't get to me through the gate 😂. He's laying right in front of it staring at me, so it's not like he can't see me.