I can’t cope

Well @SunsetSunrise I'm thinking I might try to catch some sleep before I have to be up at some crazy hour of the morning. Hoping the rest of your night goes smoothly and thanks for the chats ☺️.

@Captain24 i will chat to you in the morning sweetheart, please be careful out there and drive safely. Remember that you're loved and cared for. Thinking of you and sending love and hugs ❤️.

It is a hard decision. I’m not even sure I’m safe to drive home in daylight either? I just don’t feel real safe at all. Just trying to keep busy for the next 4 hours @MissGremlin

I don’t even think creepy! 😂

Im hoping you are asleep by now.

If not how are you going?

Morning @Captain24 sweet, how are you feeling?

Morning @MissGremlin

Ive just gotten to town and im out side the cigarette shop waiting for it to open so I don't have to come back out.

Things shifted a little when the sun came up and I was safe driving home. So that’s good. I’m really tired though and I’m going to have to keep myself busy until my appointment or I’ll end up falling asleep.

Those thoughts won’t stop though.

Did you get some sleep last night? How are you feeling?

@Captain24 makes sense to wait for the shop to open so you don't have to go back out.

I'm glad things shifted when the sun came up and that you were safe driving home. What are you going to do to keep yourself busy until your appointment?

I know the thoughts are relentless, but you're not sitting alone with them sweet ❤️.

I got a little bit of sleep but I'm feeling really heavy this morning. Hoping my counsellor messages today even just to check in. I'm safe for the moment and just getting ready to head out quickly before I can come home to rest until this afternoon.

It’s a 15 minute drive from my place to there and I was out of them. It was just easier to call in on the way home from work. @MissGremlin

I’ve put my work clothes on to wash and I’m about to bath the dogs. Then I want to change my sheets and doona cover if I have the time. That should take me up until 10. I’ve got mums dog tomorrow from 8:30 so I want to do everything today. I also need to clean the house but I can do that in the morning before they get here.

Im hoping by actually getting what the thoughts are out to someone that it may help. Just someone knowing what my head is saying.

A little bit of sleep is better than none. I’m sorry it’s all still so heavy. It’s just so hard to keep feeling this way with no positive end in sight.

I hope you get done so that you can rest. I’m hoping to be asleep by 11:30

@Captain24 you did so well to get the washing done, I put a load in before I left which I've just hung up. Have you bathed the dogs yet?

Hoping it helps to get the thoughts out, I get what you mean about it. Just having someone know what's going on inside your head can help.

It's really so hard when everyday is the same and nothing changes. I'm sitting with alot of anxiety at the moment as my emetophobia has been triggered. I'm safe and sitting with Casper.

Hoping you can get a good sleep after your appointment today sweet.

Dogs are bathed, my sheets are washing and I’ll put them in the dryer the wash the dogs towels. I’ll hang them up after my appointment. My other washing is on the line and now I’m hoping I have enough time to make my bed. @MissGremlin

Just someone knowing and help decipher them. Try and change the thoughts or lessen them to some extent.

It is hard. I’m suppose to be getting better by going through all of this but I doesn’t feel like it. I know how hard it is for you. I wish I could do something to help.

Im sorry you got triggered. I hope you are ok and that the anxiety lifts quickly.

My appointment is in 18 minutes if she is in time.

@Captain24 you've done amazing sweetheart, well done.

I'm hoping your psych can help with all of that sweet, I'm just glad that you've got her support.

It's hard when you don't feel like you're getting better, it takes time and sometimes we don't see the progress ourselves but others can.

I'm hoping the rest of the day goes ok and I don't have to deal with anyone being sick cos I really don't need that right now.

Hoping she's on time today especially so you can rest after.

I haven’t crossed much off my list though. But it has been big stuff. I managed to put the sheets and doona cover on but still have to do the pillowcases. But that’s a 5 minute job. The rest can wait until tomorrow morning before mum gets here. @MissGremlin. Unless I feel like it after I wake up and then all tomorrow is is clean the shower and wash my hair.

That must be horrible to live with. The anxiety involved.

I’ll be in bed by 11:15 and I can’t wait. I’ve already turned my air con into cold ready to sleep.

I hope you are resting right now. I know you need it. Casper snuggles!