I can’t cope

The kids next door are outside playing so that’s setting them off. @MissGremlin. Once Pix starts though she doesn’t stop. At least I can tell at Jett and he gives up!

I had to get all 10 packets out anyway so I just did them all up. It wasn’t as hard as I thought but it wasn’t easy. There was things to consider.

Hows your diamond art coming along?

Sorry @Jynx. I know you have a job to do. I’m just a screw up on here and everything in life.

@Captain24 that's hard that the kids next door are outside playing and setting the dogs off. Hoping they go inside soon so you can have peace and quiet.

You did really well to get them sorted sweet, I'm proud of you.

I've only done a little bit of the diamond art, it's really not one I'm interested in doing. Hoping the others arrive this week.

@Captain24 except the part where you didn't screw up. In any way. Please try to find a way to be kind to yourself hun, you're going through enough.

I hope they arrive soon as well @MissGremlin. You’ll be waiting at the door like I was! 😂

Im going to go to bed. I’m not feeling very good at all and I’m a screwup in here and in life. I’m a bad support person and you are better off without me.

Im sorry.

There’s nothing to be kind about. @Jynx

Im so sorry. I’m just not a good person and I’m going to bed so neither of you have to deal with me.

I have miss gremlin and out of our relationship if they want. I’m a bad support person.

Im really hating on myself and it’s ok for you to give up on me. I hate me and don’t see why anyone else would see any good in me.

@Captain24 bed sounds like a good idea. Please remember that you are not your thoughts. All I've ever seen from you is kindness, care and empathy.

I hope you have a restful slumber, and I'll chat to you next time 💜

@Captain24 haha indeed I will be 😂.

Sweetheart you are an amazing support person and I'm honestly so grateful that we've been able to connect here.

Please try to be gentle with your wonderful self, i know it's hard but know that you're loved and cared for so much.

Sending you lots of love and hugs sweet ❤️.

I’m tired. My back hurts, it feels like it’s going to go out not just back pain. I’m scared if it dies I won’t be able to walk, sit or stand. I still have 2 nights to go at work. I thought I had a Chiro appointment in the morning but then mum pointed out that it’s a public holiday. There is things I needed in town desperately but now I can get them.

Im laying here just wishing things but also wishing I was asleep. Jett is laying where I like I’m to so I can’t even blame him. He is in my comfort stop. Maybe if those wishful thoughts would stop or settle it might be easier.

Maybe just writing will help me go to sleep. It has in the last.

@Captain24 I'm sorry your back hurts sweet. Tomorrow being a public holiday would make things so hard, we had one here yesterday.

Sitting with you sweetheart, i hope you can get some sleep soon ❤️.