I can’t cope

@Jynx I'm really not even sure. I'm sorry, I'm trying to think but I don't know, it's just something I do.

Pix is costing me a fortune so it will have to wait a while until I can get some money behind me @MissGremlin

It has been a great help. I have just finished a quarter of it and I only started it yesterday afternoon. That’s a lot. I did have some dinner though.

Its ok that you dozed off, you have been busy with me all day and I’m sorry I have taken up your time but I do appreciate it.

Im thinking I’ll go and have a shower then feed the dogs and head to bed. The thoughts are getting loud and I want to stop them before they get too bad. Not sitting and watching tv and doom scrolling did help though. I just feel as though I have neglected my dogs though.

@Captain24 pets definitely aren't cheap and when you add in medical conditions it gets costly, but they are so worth it.

Wow you've done alot today. I'm so glad you've had some dinner too.

You've taken up my time in a good way so nothing to apologise for. It's a pleasure to be able to chat to you and we both support each other when things are tough ❤️.

Shower, feeding the dogs and heading to bed sounds like a perfect plan. I hope you can get a good night's sleep sweet and that tomorrow things are feeling better ❤️

@Captain24 sounds like things got really heavy for you. Did you end up reaching out to a crisis service or anything? Might help to reflect on what helped keep you safe during a rough time.

Monotony makes sense - like you can kinda just get lost in the repetitive movement. Plus a prize at the end! Love that haha. Does that resonate for you too @MissGremlin?

Hope you get a decent sleep Cap. Nighty night 💜

They are worth it and seeing the change in Pix is amazing. She is a different dog and getting better everyday. The vet was shocked at how good she is. @MissGremlin

I’m prefer to be supporting you!!! I’ve been so focused on me that I haven’t even asked how you are going? I’m sorry.

Everything is done so I can head to bed before things get out of control. I am feeling a little calmer than last night though. Plus it’s triple time at work tomorrow and I now only have 2 days and 2 nights it’s not so overwhelming. But I won’t be around much sorry for the next 4 days.

@Jynx the only reason I do diamond art and even any of my crafts now is to keep me safe, I don't remember the feelings I used to feel when I did them before. They've just become distractions.

I should have reached out last night but I had to go to bed because I thought I was working this morning. When it was so hard this morning I just went back to bed and got a couple of hours extra sleep. @Jynx

Then I just got up and sat and did diamond art, other than when mum was here and I went and got a medical certificate it’s all I’ve done and chatted to @MissGremlin @the whole day. We were doing diamond art together. She has been a godsend all day and help keep me calm.

I’ve just gotten into bed and while the thoughts are really strong, I feel a little calmer tonight than last night. Plus I now only have 2 days and 2 nights of work so that seems a little more manageable. It’s not as overwhelming. I think I can safely say that I am safe and should be in the morning too.

@Captain24 I'm so glad that she's continuing to get better everyday. You really are an amazing person to take such good care of them even when you're struggling.

We support each other sweet and you've still asked me how I'm going at different times throughout the day. I've started to struggle here and the thoughts are getting intense (I'm safe). I've just grabbed my new diamond art to start but the plastic on this one feels really weird and I'm not liking it.

I'm glad you're feeling a little calmer than last night and I'm hoping you can settle for the night so things don't get bad. Hope all goes ok with work for the next few days sweet and I'll look forward to chatting to you whenever to can ❤️

Oh the different texture!!! Autism in high alert! 😂. I hope it goes ok though and helps. @MissGremlin

Im sorry it’s getting loud and I’m now in bed. I’m sorry I can’t be there for you.

I do hope you have a beater night than last night and get some good sleep. Please be careful, you mean a lot to me. I’ll check in tomorrow night before u go to bed.

Good night.

@Captain24 oh it most definitely is 😂. It's like sticky if you touch it.

It's completely ok sweetheart. I'm glad you're in bed.

Definitely hoping for a better night than last night. You mean alot to me too sweet so look after your wonderful self. Night night beautiful ❤️.