I can’t cope

I was asleep @tyme @MissGremlin @Jynx

But I have just woken up and while my breathing is ok I really just can’t face the day at work. I really need a day in bed. I’m really in a bad way. So I have called in sick. I hate doing it but I think it’s for the best and the safest option for all.

Hello @Captain24 sweet, I'm sorry you are in a bad way but I'm glad that you've taken the day off. I'm here for you sweetheart ❤️.

Having taken the day off means it’s now only 2 days and 2 nights and that feels more manageable. @MissGremlin. I really just couldn’t face it. I told mum and work that I had been vomiting for a couple of hours.

Mums been really caring thinking I’m sick. She was suppose to take Pix to the vet so she has just come around and collected her. I have her dog while they are there.

Mum was going to take my dogs for the morning so I can sleep but they just stay in the bed with me anyway. They love it when I say I’m going to bed. They both ran down to my room this morning after I got ready and just decided I couldn’t do it.

I may need a little help today. I’m sorry.

How are you feeling? Any plans?

@Captain24 I'm glad that 2 night and 2 days feels more manageable. It's ok that you couldn't face today, you are really listening to your body sweet and I'm proud of you for that.

Hope all goes ok for Pix at the vet.

I think it's good that you have the dogs with you this morning and I'm glad they stay in bed with you.

It's completely ok sweetheart, i am here for you and we'll get through the day together ❤️.

Last night took a bit of a wild turn, i took a pain relief medication that i don't usually take and it reacted with me badly (I'm safe). I felt so sick which sent me into a panic cos of the emetophobia as I thought i was going to be sick. It got really intense. Thankfully I managed to fall asleep eventually and I'm not feeling sick today. The only thing I have today is a phone call at 11.30.

It’s just a blood test to check on her diabetes @MissGremlin. I will probably have to up her insulin.

Mums dog has just been bitten by a green ant. So I’m sitting on the lounge with her and have her foot on an ice pack. Poor girl.

Is this phobia why you can’t take psych meds? Just a yes or no answer, I’m not prying!

It must be so hard to deal with. Did the pain meds help though other than cause panic? Do they help you sleep better?

@Captain24 hoping the insulin levels can stay the same but either way she's in the best hands with you.

Awww no, those green ants are horrible and their bites sting. Hope she's doing ok.

Unfortunately psych meds are completely out for you due to the severe reactions i have from them.

The pain meds didn't even help with the pain or sleep, so not only was I in pain but I was feeling sick, dizzy and really just not ok in many ways (I'm safe). It was so scary last night, I was very close to calling 000 but even my speech wasn't normal when I tried to talk to Casper.

I'm sitting on my lounge doing my diamond art with Casper laying on my leg.

It is what it is for Pix. She is getting so wild, playful and energetic though. She is feeling the best she has felt for probably 12 months. I’ll do what I can to keep her having a happy healthy life! @MissGremlin It’s expensive though.

She’s a little bit sooky. But also mum left her here and took Pix away which is not normal. They don’t cope with change very well. She is still licking her foot!

That’s fair, they also do make you nauseous when you start them. That’s why I asked. Just curious about the phobia that’s all.

That sounds horrific. Maybe you could have called nurse on call? Too late now though 😜. It sounds like what happens if I take a bit too many. That’s what happens to me. If you can read between the lines!

How are you feeling now? Much pain? Does the panic subside when you are no longer nauseous?

Im going back to my diamond art when mum and dad drop Pix back. I have done some this morning. I did go back to bed for a couple of hours after I called in sick though.

@Captain24 I'm glad Pix is playful and energetic, she's a whole personality 😂. I can imagine it would be expensive but she's so lucky to have you.

Awww lots of cuddles for her. I got bitten by one of those ants once and they are horrible. I was also worried cos I'm allergic to bull ants. Change can be tough for them just like it can us.

Yes they do make you nauseous when you start them. If i start feeling sick or even just off i go into a panic thinking that I'm coming down sick. If someone around me is sick I panic that I'm going to catch it. My friend that I have is the same and has emetophobia so it's quite funny if either of us feel sick while we are together, but we both get it which helps.

I thought about it but when I couldn't talk properly I was like well that's not going to help them understand me 😂. Yes I get a bad reaction from taking the pain relief I usually take due to taking too much previously. Glad we can both read between the lines.

Still alot of pain and i have a headache but I'm scared to even take anything after last night. The panic does settle once I start to feel ok but then little things trigger it thinking it's going to happen again. It's like I can feel hungry, think about eating but then panic cos I'm scared if I eat I'll start feeling sick again.

Doing some diamond art after Pix is back sounds perfect. Also glad you went back to bed for a bit this morning.

My phone call that I was meant to have has just been cancelled.

Pix has lost over a kilo of weight. She was obese. For the first time ever they are now worried about her losing too much weight. Usually they were worried about how much weight she kept gaining. I even took her to a specialist hospital to have her checked over for her weight gain! @MissGremlin

The vet is going to ring me sometime today with the results and told mum that I’m not allowed to take her off the insulin and laughed. I said I was taking her off as she is getting way too energetic and full in! 😂. The vet is really really happy with her. Especially after everything mum said about her walks and stuff.

It sounds like such a rare thing and then for you both to have it is amazing (I don’t mean that in a good way just don’t know the right word!)

There is only so much we can say but it easier when we can ‘get it’

I can understand not being able to. It’s a hard thing to go through and then wonder if it’s all out of your system.

It must be so hard to live with. If I don’t eat enough I get nauseous but then to think of you do it it’ll make it worse would be so hard to manage.

Im sitting here now doing it.

Im sorry your call got cancelled. At least you don’t have to answer the phone now! I hate having to talk on the phone.

@Captain24 it's good that she's lost weight but cash understand them not wanting her to lose too much.

Hoping the results are all ok. Haha love how you can joke about it. Really glad that Pix is doing so well though.

It's a tough thing but I'm glad we both understand how each other is feeling.

Yes there's only so much we can say but i definitely get it. I'm sitting in that really tough space at the moment of knowing i need to take something to help with the pain but being too scared to cos of what happened last night (I'm safe).

I'm the same, if i don't eat enough i get nauseous but it's the fear of knowing that eating could also make me nauseous. It sucks that last night when I started feeling sick I had only just had one of my safe meals so now I'm worried that I won't be able to eat that again.

Glad you are doing your diamond art, I'm still sitting here doing mine.

They actually rang to cancel the phone call 😂. It was meant to be with 2 people but one is off sick so it has to be rescheduled.