I can’t cope

Okay, I understand why you might not want to reach out to them and that's perfectly understandable. @MissGremlin 💛

I can hear there's been some vulnerability around mum too... I am glad you're able to talk about how you're feeling here. Have you talked about this with your counsellor?

Of course, @NightFury! 🫶

And @Captain24, hello to you too. I'll jump into your thread very soon. 🥰

Edit: I thought I was in Battles haha I am not sure how, but good news, looks like I am already in your thread Cap!

How are you feeling this week? And how are little Pix and Jett?

I just had the last of the curried sausages that I cooked up on Friday. It’s going to be an early night. I’ll feed the dogs at 8:30 and then go back to bed. I feel like I’m getting a cold and I’m all snuffily. But I’ve felt like this many times before it and hasn’t happened. @MissGremlin

It can be anything. My TV remote just said that it needs to recharge. It’s stressing me out! The solar panel is t charging. But I don’t know what charger belongs to it. Solution is open the console of the lounge and look. Too hard! 😂

Im so sorry that has happened to you. Getting stalked in here makes it unsafe. You should be able to be yourself and share what you wish to share and not worry. That would strain my relationship as well. You need here to be able to receive support and have a place for connection with people who get it.

@Captain24 yum to the curried sausages. An early night sounds good and i hope you aren't coming down with a cold, sometimes a good night's rest is all that's needed to avoid it.

Haha oh I totally get that too hard feeling 😂. Sometimes it's the littlest things that can have the biggest impact when there's alot of other things going on.

I’m thinking I’ll feed Pix now. I’m just too tired. @MissGremlin

That must have been so hard for you and still hard now knowing she is watching. I’d hate to think my mum could see what I have written. I totally get you being so guarded though. I respected it anyway but I do so even more now.

Im sorry I haven’t been around much for you today. I’ve let you down and now I want to feed the dogs and head to bed. I’m really sorry but I just can’t see anymore of the day out.

Please don’t think I’m abandoning you. I just can’t do it. Maybe after a decent sleep I might feel better. It was 3 nightshifts and they are harder to recover from.

Im really sorry.

@Captain24 oh sweetheart, you have absolutely nothing to apologise for. You most definitely aren't letting me down. I'm glad you are going to feed Pix now and head to bed, I'm hoping you can sleep through the night and wake up feeling better tomorrow.

Sending you lots of love and hugs beautiful, night night ❤️.

I hope you get some rest tonight @Captain24 💛

It sounds like it's been a really big weekend of work.

Please take care of yourself tonight, sending big hugs your way.

Thanks @AuntGlow. It was a big weekend.

I got bogged in the watercart. Like really bogged! The dirt was hitting the bottom of the truck. The bosses had to lay on it to get under the truck to get to the tow hitch so they could tow me out. It was quite funny. If you get bogged you have to bring in cakes so the topic of conversation on the 2way was whether I could bake or not. Then the boss decided he needed to announce it at the prestart meeting the next night! Everyone gave me heaps but it was a good laugh for all!

Also a guy had a go at me, he yelled, we were alone at the time but I stood my ground and gave it back to him. It was quite a proud moment for me.

I’ve had a good sleep last night so I’m feeling a little less exhausted right now. See how the day pans out. I have a psych appointment at 2 so I’ll be honest with her and see how it goes.

Hey @MissGremlin

Did you get any sleep? How are you feeling?

I slept pretty well just had to get up a couple of times to go to the toilet. Which annoys me.

I’ve woken up and changed my bedlinen and washed my work jumpers. Now my other clothes are in with the sheets and they should be done soon. I’ll give the dogs breakfast at 8:30 and then they can have a bath. It only takes 40minutes to do both of them.

Do you have any plans? Anything I can support you with?

Morning @Captain24 sweet, i slept a little bit but was up and down waking up with panic attacks.

I'm glad you slept pretty well but waking up to go to the toilet is annoying.

You've done incredible to get those things done already. Hope all goes ok giving them a bath.

I have an appointment to go to soon but it's not for me then a bit after I have to take mother to the shops which I'm really anxious about.

At least you got a little bit, the panic attacks must be frustrating @MissGremlin

Ive done a bit more. I’m feeling like I have accomplished something. Still a bit to do though.

I hope the appointment goes well for them and that you can spend some time with someone for a little bit of connection.

I get the anxiety, don’t forget your lanyard today, it might help a little to have some comfort.