I can’t cope

I got my washing off the line and have gotten back into bed. So if I stop replying it means I’ve nodded off again. @MissGremlin

I’m glad the colouring felt ok. It’s something else to do. What do you mean when it’s messed up? Of things are difficult it makes it so much easier to give up.

What happened at the shops? If you’re ok to talk about it or want to if you don’t want to that’s ok. I can see why you don’t want to go out though. It must be compounding everything! I’m sorry that happened!

@Captain24 i hope you were able to get a bit more rest sweet.

The diamond art is messed up with the numbers, there's sections with the same numbers that are clearly meant to be different colours. I've been trying to fix it by using different colours from other sets but it's just stressing me out.

I'm mindful that we can't go into details here but I had a guy inappropriately touch me the other day when I was in a shop. It's left me really shaken, I already have enough anxiety going out so this happening really isn't helping.

I got a little bit but mum rand me and woke me up @MissGremlin @so now I’ve gotten up and done a few things. Just have to unpack the dishwasher and I’m done. I did want to weed the garden but it’s too late now.

That does sound stressful. Is it the first time it’s happened? It would turn me off for a little while too. My Temu order should be here tomorrow or Wednesday. Plus my dog diamond arts are t to far away either. They are in Australia and with Australia post.

That’s horrible. I don’t know where people think that that is ok, especially these days. I had a guy grab me when I was working in retail and I elbowed him. He asked me what was wrong! The register supervisor yelled at him as I was just in shock.

I can totally understand the anxiety especially after being violated. Nowhere feels safe for you right now.

Hello, lovely. How are you? @MissGremlin

I will be back a little later, but I just wanted to touch on what you have shared and let you know that it's never okay for someone to touch you inappropriately and I am so sorry this happened. Do you feel reaching out to 1800Respect for more support tonight could be helpful? 💛

Hello @AuntGlow sweet, I'm really quite a mess in many ways (I'm safe).

I've had some experiences with them previously that have left me not confident in reaching out to them again.

@Captain24 that's what happened to me earlier today, I dozed off and got woken by my mother ringing me by something that could have been sent in a message. You did well to get up and do a few things sweet and the weeding will be there for another day.

Yes it's the first time it's happened and it's sad cos its a picture that I was looking forward to doing but I'm not sure i can save it. I've ordered 10 more pictures so I'm hoping they come soon but now I've got anxiety off this happening again with those ones 😂. Yay for your ones being on their way especially the dog ones.

I just couldn't believe it happened, I was looking in a section at some products when he came behind me but got really close so I moved away thinking that he wanted to grab something, but yeah that something was me so he got closer again and then touched me. It got reported to security and they escorted him out of the shops. I'm sorry you had that experience sweet, there's never any excuse for it. I'm glad the supervisor was there to defend you too.

She was placing an order with petstock and needed to know what I wanted. @MissGremlin. I’m usually up by then so she wouldn’t have thought anything of it.

I’ll try and weed tomorrow after I bath the dogs and change my bedlinen. If it doesn’t get done then it just doesn’t get done. Wednesday is my day for just me.

It’s a shame when you really wanted to do that one. I can imagine the anxiety as I now have it too 😂. I won’t be doing my Temu ones for quite a while though. As I still have one good one and then the 4 dig ones that are coming and I haven’t finished this one yet. If I do finish it I can’t start a new one until the dogs get here so I can do it for mums birthday and go get some frames.

It just shouldn’t happen. I’m glad you reported it. A lowlife like that shouldn’t be around people.

That’s terrible that you had to go straight back and then forgot your lanyard. I wouldn’t have let my mother know either. She hasn’t questioned yet why I’m having so many GP appointments and online ones. She doesn’t need to know and I don’t want her to know.

@Captain24 well at least she was ringing for something important.

That sounds like a good plan. Having Wednesday as a day just for you is perfect i reckon and you definitely deserve it.

Just really hoping this was a once off thing that happened. I might start one of the others tonight but they are both big ones and lots of large areas of one colour. It's both funny and frustrating that something like that can trigger anxiety so much. Oh yes the one for mums birthday will be so good to do. I've been looking at getting one of Casper done but just worried about how it will turn out.

The guy really didn't seem all there but it's still no excuse.

I think I just need to try and take care of myself. @MissGremlin. I’m sitting here doing diamond art now and just going to get up and get some dinner. I’m so so so tired!

This one that I’m doing has lots of black. It even came in a different sized ziplock bag! I find them quicker. It doesn’t take much to set off anxiety when things are all ready hard. Just the slightest little thing can do it. But I do get the funny side!

Is that the reason for the name change? I can’t believe she is doing that. That is such an invasion. I get why you are extra guarded now. How did you find out? Maybe she won’t find you over here?

@Captain24 what's for dinner tonight sweet? Hoping you can get a good night's sleep.

The one I will start tonight has lots of white around the outside. Yes the slightest thing can set it off and it's not even something that usually a thing to be anxious about that's what I find funny.