I can’t cope

@Captain24 I've tried melatonin but it didn't work for me.

I mean at least it's something to laugh about. Hopefully you avoid getting bogged tonight.

It was definitely a laughing situation with mine aswell, the ex tried to shake the snatch strap off and got flicked with the mud. Best part was that we caught it on video.

Today has been so hard, I'm not myself at all and I don't like it (I'm safe). I've been in bed all day but I've gotten up to try to make something to eat and I fed Casper.

I hope work goes ok for you tonight sweet. Sending you love and hugs ❤️

Bugger. It didn’t work for me either @MissGremlin

They asked for water again during the night and I said no way and laughed! I was going back in there and I won’t tonight either! 😂

My bosses had to lay under the truck in the dirt to get to the tow hitch. Then the boss has lost the nut and we were digging through it trying to find it!

That does sound like a laughing situation!

Im sorry you aren’t yourself. That makes things so hard. I get it though I was like that and my support team could tell and were very cautious. I don’t know what to say to help.

Mum just had to ring the vet, she left Pix’s insulin in the car and it has to be refrigerated. They gave us a new bottle though, lucky the vet was already there and I shouldn’t have to pay a call out fee.

Work should be ok. It’s the last one so everyone is more relaxed.

Talk to you more tomorrow.

@Captain24 haha i can understand not wanting to go back to get more water after that 😂.

Oh gees having to lay in the dirt and then losing the nut, it was all happening.

It's so hard not being yourself and even scarier when others notice it. My friends that I talk to online have noticed it in just in the way I talk. I'm sorry you know what it's like but it helps to know that you understand.

Oh no, thank goodness the vet was in and able to give a new bottle. Hoping you don't have to pay a call out fee either.

Glad it's the last shift for you tonight, I'll be thinking of you. Look forward to chatting whenever we get to ❤️

Lol @Captain24 , way to go!

So glad you were assertive and stood your ground. I'm guessing it's a very male-dominated role???

Sounded like a stressful but somewhat entertaining evening. Did you have to go under the truck too?

It must be like an entire mini-city there. As much as I want to 'see' what it's like, I just can't imagine all of this happening 24/7. It's prettty astonishing. It's a cool job to be honest 🙂

What made you apply in the first place?

Hey @MissGremlin , sorry things are so hard right now.

Hey @MissGremlin

I haven’t forgotten you. I’ve washed and hung out my work clothes, cleaned the house and just had a shower and have jumped into bed. Hoping I get a few hours of sleep.

I’m wondering how you are going?

Im thinking of you and will chat when I wake up.

@Captain24 hope you can get some sleep sweet ❤️.

Will chat to you later.

Sorry @MissGremlin I only just woke up.

How is today going for you?

@Captain24 it's ok sweet, how are you feeling?

Today really isn't a good day, I'm in so much pain from 3 different teeth being infected, a pounding migraine and a sharp pain shooting through my ear. The physical pain plus mental struggles is really just compounding everything and making thoughts more intense (I'm safe). I'm just laying in bed with Casper. I tried to do some colouring before but I couldn't focus.

Tired, drained and down @MissGremlin I’m supposed to go to the vet to pay for the insulin but I just can’t do it. It can wait until tomorrow. They know me well enough to know I will pay it. We’ve only been go there 40 years!

Im sorry to hear you are in so much pain. I get the pain and struggles make everything harder. You haven’t coloured for a while. What made you try that?

It’s ok to be in bed. If I didn’t have things to do I would go back.

@Captain24 sorry to hear sweet, sitting with you ❤️. The vet can definitely wait until tomorrow.

The pain really is making everything worse. I did some colouring the other day after I got a new book. Can't even remember why I did some but it felt ok, I've only done a few little bits so far. I've lost interest in my diamond art at the moment but I think it's cos the picture I'm trying to do is all messed up and none of the ones I have left are ones I'm really wanting to do at the moment.

I just can't do anything though, I went out on Saturday and that was a horrible day with being SA at the shops (I'm safe). It's really made me not want to go out again.