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I can’t cope

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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@Captain24 made one of her dogs. Maybe you can do one of Casper!

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Sorry @MissGremlin , forgot to tag you in the post above. I was talking about the square dot diamond art of Casper

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@tyme yes I've thought about it, just have to be mindful of how it will look cos Casper is all black 😂.

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Duh! I never thought of that @MissGremlin !

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@tyme this diamond art that I'm doing is messed up. They have colours that should be a different number otherwise you can't make out the picture.

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I’m hoping you are asleep right now @MissGremlin. I’m getting ready for bed.

Im sorry something happened at the shops. It’s hard enough with your car. Then to have your mother call. It must have been a lot.

Im thinking of you.

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Hello @Captain24, last night was the worst night ever, I only dozed off after 5.20am. The tears wouldn't stop, it all got too much to carry (I'm safe). I'm about to curl up with Casper and try to get some more sleep or at least rest if I can.

I hope work was ok for you sweetheart and that you can get a good sleep before your shift tonight. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️.

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I hope you are able to get some. This is really becoming a serious problem. @MissGremlin

Work was interesting. I was in a truck without heating and it was freezing, that cold that when I got to my car it had frost on it.

I got bogged big time, there was no way I was going to get it out. I called the bosses and they had to get the sling and a dozer to tow me out! We all got filthy!

Then I was told to take my truck to the park up area and get it inspected by workshop. The workshop guy had a go at me as it was supposed to to be inspected before it got towed out. Not my fault, I did what the bosses told me. He was rude.

A girl as an operator to do something during the extra part of our shift. He was doing something else that didn’t matter. I drove past him and said on the 2way ‘I guess you’re not getting the floor graded’. That guy doesn’t talk to me. Even when I say hello, he really doesn’t like me. We get to the pickup point and he yells at me for making him look stupid. I tried not to laugh at him but I did respond back with things he has said about me that have been rude and derogatory. I was proud of myself for standing up for myself.

@tyme @Jynx I think you both will be impressed!

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@Captain24 it's definitely becoming a serious problem, I keep trying everything possible to try to sleep but it's just not working and I don't know why (I'm safe).

Oh sweet that sounds like a really hard night, being without heating is not good especially with the cooler temperatures that we're having now. I'm not sure whether to laugh at getting bogged or if it would have been stressful or a mixture of both. It brings up a memory for me of my ex getting bogged on a muddy track and him having to use my mums car to get himself out, he got covered in mud and we all cracked up laughing.

I'm sorry the workshop guy was rude to you, that's really not ok, not when you did what the bosses told you to.

That sort of treatment is disgraceful from him but I'm really proud of you for standing up for yourself sweet as you don't deserve to be treated that way.

I'm sorry if I'm not making sense or missing parts when i reply, I'm trying to read and type but my brain feels like it's jumping all over the place.

I've made a coffee and I'm sitting back in bed with Casper now.

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I’ve got nothing left to suggest. @MissGremlin Other than taking melatonin but I know how against meds you are. They do give it to kids though.

It’s definitely a laugh about getting bogged! When we do we have to take cakes in. The guy in the shovel that couldn’t turn around as I was too close asked over the 2way what I was baking. Then every second person was on the 2way laughing with either a laugh over the 2way or ‘are you bogged captain’ We give everyone hell when they get bogged.

Im not sure whether ours was a funny experience or not? I would have laughed though.

You made complete sense. I know you struggle with long posts. But I just had to get my interesting night out. I have packed a jacket to put over my jumper tonight though.

I hope today has been a little kind to you.

Im thinking of you. I’m about to head off to work.

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