I can’t cope

Hey @MissGremlin

How are you feeling? Did today through any curve balls at you?

Hey @AuntGlow

Sorry I bailed last night. I’m going to bed an half an hour.

My positives where that I have been leaving the house, I’ve been communicating on here more and I’ve been chatting to a friend more. I’ve been doing diamond art instead of sitting there just doom scrolling and not doing anything else. I’m trying to change my way of thinking and not overload myself with jobs everyday and I’ve decided that my house doesn’t need to be cleaned everyday.

We’ve added to my safety plan to go out and look at the stars. Plus a reason to live is for my friend that came and stayed at the end of last year, the one I met in hospital. I told my psych that she has decided to leave her husband and couldn’t cope with the stress of me too. My psych did say the best thing for my friend is to leave her husband. My psych knows my friend well from hospital.

Hello @Captain24 sweet. Honestly the universe has thrown quite a few curve balls my way tonight. Today wasn't too bad but the morning really sucked with my car not starting when I needed to go out. Then I went to the shops after lunch with my friend and her bubs which was nice. Coming home I had a moment where things were ok until it all came crashing down and things have just gotten worse from there. I'm safe and i just got into bed with Casper and my diamond art.

How are you feeling sweetheart?

Hello hello @MissGremlin @Captain24

LONG time no see 🙂

I’m sorry things came crashing down. @MissGremlin You made it to bed though. I hope you can focus on your diamond art. I want to do some but I need to eat, shower, feed the dogs and go to bed.

Hello @tyme, how are you going?

Hey @tyme

How are you? How was the holiday? Did you

cope with the other family?

Just so you know I’m going to bed around 8:40 as I have work in the morning.

@Captain24 I'm really glad to be in bed and hoping i can do some diamond art.

It must be hard not being able to do some now that you're back at work. Eating, shower, feeding the dogs and bed sounds like a good idea sweet.

I'm just so so so glad to be "home"... I mean, here, on the forums. It's just so nice to be here on the forums, hanging out with my forums family. @MissGremlin @Captain24 - I've seriously just missed chatting to everyone here. Happy to chat until you have to go @Captain24 @MissGremlin

As for the camping trip... ergh... the other family was okay I guess. But I had to learn a lot of patience with my BIL... he needs help. I had a good talk to him today and told him he was burning us with his incapability. It's so sad to see him this way. But after our chat, he helped out a bit more. It's going to be a LONG road.

And look, I shouldn't complain too much if we've already booked out next camping trip... oh, but then the in-laws are coming back to stay for a few more years (I think). But they don't come camping with us.

Oh, I have to share that on the last night of camping, which was the coldest, I found a hole in the mattress!!!! So I was pretty much on the cold floor on the last night.

Anyway, the kiddos had fun. That's the main thing.

I havent read back yet, but i WILL. I have over 200 notifications!

I’m just about to go and have a shower and then my day is done. @MissGremlin.

all I thought about today was that I’d rather be home. It’s too hard to make conversation with people. Diamond art on my own is so much easier. But I have to pay the bills somehow.