I can’t cope

That’s a shame @MissGremlin. How are you feeling about it? When do you see them again?

Im just waiting for my psych to log on.

I have cooked my dinners for the next few nights and done the dishes. That’s a big thing! When I get off here I’m going to get my washing in and then go back to my diamond art until dinner time and I’ll have leftovers for lunches. So far my day is going to plan.

What are you up to?

@Captain24 I'm annoyed about it but I wasn't the priority today. I'm feeling really emotional and fighting back tears, there's just so much going on and it's hitting hard at the moment (I'm safe).

Hope all goes well with your psych.

You've done so well today and I'm glad it's all gone to plan.

I'm sitting with an iced coffee just focusing on breathing for a bit before I do my dishes and then maybe some diamond art.

I’m sorry that there is more to deal with than just your stuff @MissGremlin. That’s hard enough to deal with as it is. Let the tears flow it may be the release you need.

Im glad you are thinking about your breathing. That’s a good thing. I hope you get to your diamond art soon.

My psych is late as usual! 😂 I’ll let you know how it goes.

My appointment was ok @MissGremlin. I told her all the good stuff to start with and she was proud. Then she asked me if I had any thoughts of suicide and self harm. I answered honestly. I told her all the things I’ve been thinking about and we have come up with little plans. Not much but something to try and help. She also said to add to my reasons to live on my safety plan a friend that I’m close to. Plus make a Pdoc appointment. I have done both.

My diamond art is helping to distract so it’s ok to be so focused on that plus it could be an adhd hyperfocus. As long as I don’t sit up late at night doing it and stick to a regular routine it’s ok and healthy for me to do.

Anyway… how are you feeling now?

Hello @Captain24 sweet, I'm sorry i haven't been around much today. Everything really got the better of me earlier, I tried to do diamond art but couldn't then thought I'd try to reach out to a crisis service but couldn't get through, then decided to try to nap to switch off for a bit but I had constant noise in my ears and my head was pounding, then I was out of it but woke up feeling crappy (I'm safe). I've just made something to eat but really struggling with feeling like I'm going to pass out.

I'm glad the appointment went ok and you have some little plans in place, anything is better than nothing. I'm glad you've done both those things aswell, really proud of you sweet.

That's good about the diamond art too as I know you were worried about it.

Hey @MissGremlin, thank you for stating that you are safe!! We really appreciate it ❤️

I just wanted to let you know that if you are feeling unwell or like you may pass out. Then you can give Health Direct a call and speak with registered nurse here on 1800 022 222: https://www.health.gov.au/contacts/healthdirect-helpline?language=en

I don't want you to feel concerned so please reach out if you think it will be beneficial!

RiverSeal

Hello @RiverSeal, I'm just trying to let things settle down but if I'm worried I'll reach out to them.

Thankyou ❤️.

It’s ok that you haven’t been around. You just can’t catch a break can you? It’s just one thing after another. I’m sorry it’s so hard. @MissGremlin

It’s good about the diamond art. I don’t need to stress about my obsession.

I’ve cooked dinner and washed up. Lunches are packed.

Im really sorry but I’m really struggling tonight. My thoughts are pretty loud. If you want to stay away that’s totally ok. I understand that I’m a bit too much right now.

@Captain24 I'm here for you sweet and you're never too much for me. If you want to talk about anything at all I'm here and listening ❤️.

I was trying to keep this as a safe space for you @MissGremlin.

What I’m thinking and feeling doesn’t fit into that. It’s really dark.