I can’t cope

Lucky for those jump start packs! @MissGremlin

They will get some in on Wednesday so I’m hoping that they will have it still on Friday when I go in. It’s become really popular now.

It is a huge feat since I usually just stay at home all the time. I’ve been going to shops that I have put off so that’s helping. It’s some form of connection everyday.

It’s a good feeling when it’s unpacked. Have you got stuff for dinner tonight now?

@Captain24 yes I'm lucky for having that but it's not holding charge like it should be.

It's good they will get some in on Wednesday, maybe they can put some aside for you for Friday?

It's definitely huge, I avoid going out too much cos of fuel costs and my anxiety is a alot to manage aswell.

It's good once it's all unpacked. I do, not sure if I'll have dinner yet but there's options if I'm hungry.

How's the diamond art going?

Mum said about putting to the side but I didn’t think of it. @MissGremlin. I have plenty in the freezer if they don’t have any.

Fuel is ridiculously expensive. I go through a whole tank driving to and from work for 5 days!

I think you should eat something, even if it’s something little like a cheese toastie.

Im almost half way. Mum said earlier that for her birthday she just wants that picture of Keiko. I told her it’s not enough but she wants me to save my money and that’s what she really wants. When I did the one of her last dog she left it here as she said she had nowhere to put it. Now I’m thinking she just wasn’t ready, it was her favourite photo of Angel.

Hows yours going? Are you getting any done?

@Captain24 well at least you have some in the freezer if they do run out before you can get in there.

I'm lucky that I get about 2 weeks on my tank but it's still a costly thing when you have to fill up plus at the moment there's no knowing if we may run out of fuel.

I'll try to eat something later but I'm too stressed at the moment with what's happening here (I'm safe).

Awww i think that's a perfect present though especially if that's what she wants. It's definitely possible that she just wasn't ready for it at that time. It's like the photo I have on the frame that holds Laylah's ashes it makes me cry everytime I look at it cos she just looks like such a puppy and it's unfair that she didn't get to live a long and happy life.

I'm about half way with my diamond art too but won't get to do any until later tonight.

I don’t think we are going to run out of fuel. Diesel maybe as they need it for industries to keep running. @MissGremlin. We go through well over 200 000 litres a day at work.

2 weeks isn’t very long? My car is hybrid so I do get a lot more kms out of it.

Are you able to talk about what’s happening? It’s ok if you can’t.

It’s so sad when they go but especially at such a young age. It broke my heart when I lost Honey but she was 10, she still had time in her though.

What are you up to now?

@Captain24 no i don't think we'll run out either but yes diesel is a concern. I can imagine you would go through alot of it at work, it's definitely needed to keep machinery and trucks running.

2 weeks is good considering I have to use my car every day for several trips. It's about 2½ weeks before I'm down to ¼ tank when I fill up. Having a hybrid is really lucky especially at the moment.

Can't really talk about it but I'm just in a really loud and stressful environment (I'm safe).

It's hard losing them at any age but when they are young it's even harder. Honey sounds like she was a very special girl.

I'm about to have an iced coffee and enjoy sitting for the next 30ish minutes before I have to do things.

That’s a lot of going out and my psych will be excited that I went out once a day! @MissGremlin. Do you travel far? I’m lucky, I went to the other side of town for the dog food today and it took 15 minutes!

It’s ok that you can’t talk about it was just giving you an option if you did. I didn’t think you would be able though.

Honey was the first dog that was mine, the rest were family pets. She would love this house as there is so much yard space to play fetch. She grew her wings when I was trying to get the loan.

Iced coffee and sitting sounds good. You are always on the go. I’ve barely moved! But my aim is to slow down and be gentle.

@Captain24 i bet your psych will be excited, she sounds like an awesome person that so supportive of you. I don't go too far but it's lots of trips with stopping and starting. That's a good short trip considering it's the other side of town.

Thankyou sweet. It's just something I keep out of the forums.

I'm sorry you lost her sweet, our first furbabies always leave a big hole in our hearts when we lose them.

Life is back to normal as of when i got back from the shops so there's not many opportunities i get to sit and rest. So enjoying my iced coffee and being able to connect here before I have to get up and do things is nice.

She is so supportive and never pushes me any further than I can go. @MissGremlin

My estate is just outside of town and the produce store is as far as you can go on the other side. Shows you how small of a place I live in!

Im glad you can have a little break. What time do you start your bed time routine? I’m glad you are connecting on here. I have seen notifications come up for your thread but I have stayed away so I’m not influenced by what you have written. Trying to keep here a safe space.

I just finished half my diamond art!

@Captain24 I'll reply in a bit sweet. I have to go out quickly.