I can’t cope

@Captain24 it was long and triggering but I got through it

Haha oh I'm so glad you slept awesomely, lucky you did wake up to the alarm 😂.

Hope you get another good sleep sweet.

I'm feeling a mess today but I'm getting ready to go to an appointment with my friend as she has one today.

I can hear how helpful being immersed in an activity/work can be for you. @Captain24 What level of work/activity helps to keep you in that healthy space of distraction or redirection?

Yes, please let me know what your psych says. Regarding meeting your GP halfway, I think that's more than enough right now... you're holding so many challenges, so I think incremental changes are perfect. Rebuilding habits takes time and you're allowed to do this at your own pace.

But yes, getting out is hard. 🥲 Do you have a heated blanket?

I am okay! I have been unwell this week, so just trying to take care of myself and ensure I am keeping up with all of my responsibilities. Being an adult isn't an easy gig, hey? 💛

Hey @MissGremlin

I slept ok today but had to get up and go to the toilet a few times which makes for interrupted sleep.

I hope you friends appointment went well and you got lots of bub cuddles while she was there. I’m glad that you have a friend.

I hope you aren’t feeling too bad tonight.

Im about to go into work but I’ll be around tomorrow after I have a sleep.

Thinking of you

Hey @AuntGlow

I’ll respond properly in the morning as I’m about to head into work.

Hello @Captain24 sweet, waking up to go to the toilet is annoying but I'm glad you slept ok at least.

The appointment went ok, was actually rather a good laugh at times. No bubs cuddles today though so I told my friend that I'm gonna steal bubs from her soon 😂.

Everything really came crashing down tonight (I'm safe). I've felt guilty for feeling joy today.

I hope work goes ok for you tonight sweetheart, thinking of you ❤️

Okay, have a good shift. @Captain24 🫶

@Captain24 fingers crossed! 🤞

Yeah very much so, our brains are not wired for it! That's why safety plans, coping plans, self-care plans etc are all so useful - they help provide an external source of memory/logic/reason/ideas that we just can't access when we're in survival mode!

I hope the rest of your shifts can be jobs you enjoy, or at least stuff that isn't too taxing.

Give your pups some scritches from me? 💜

Hey @MissGremlin

Ive just gotten up. I’ve decided my favourite things about nightshift is I have my bed to myself! 😂 ! The dogs were annoying me. Im still really tired but just can’t sleep. I don’t take my night meds before I go to sleep today though. I save them for tonight.

Im glad you had a laugh. It’s good for the soul. But I do get the guilt for feeling it. I feel like I do t deserve any happiness. But the one bonus is that you did get to feel it even if it was fleeting . It’s still inside you somewhere.

How are you feeling today?

I’m not sure what a healthy space is for me right now. @AuntGlow. The diamond art worked well and work, while it is hard, serves as a distraction since I have to be out, talking to people and concentrate. I did struggle really badly with exhaustion at about 11 last night though and struggled until the sun came up at 6. Bonus is that it was a stunning sunrise and we had about a 15 minute 2 way conversation on it and sunrises and sunsets in general!

I see my gp this afternoon so it’ll be interesting as to what he has to say. He always runs really late and I probably won’t get out of there until nearly 7 like last time. I hope he accepts what I have tried.

No, I don’t have a heated blanket.

Sorry you have been unwell. It is hard being an adult as life still goes on! Hoping you feel a bit better now.

Hello @Captain24 sweet, haha see if I have the bed to myself it feels too empty 😂. Can understand when they get annoying though, Casper sometimes gets silly and tries to bury himself under the pillows or go under my blankets 😂.

That guilt always hits so hard after but the moments were still nice nonetheless.

Today I've felt very emotional and had lots of anxiety. I woke up at 3.30am crying, it's happened twice in the past couple of weeks but not something I've experienced before. I've kept busy doing washing and dishes, had a very short nap now I'm out at the moment and catching up on posts while I have I minutes to myself.

How's the day been for you?