I can’t cope

I was always hopeless with my dishes and housework. My place was always a mess. I’d do the dishes when I ran out of clean ones or couldn’t stack them in the kitchen anymore. @MissGremlin. No that I have my own home I keep it really clean and put the dishes in the dish washer! I do have moments when my kitchen bench is a mess and that gets to me. That’s why I write job lists all the time.

Staring into space can actually be good, I find it passes the time with no stimulation. Also a good time to process thoughts if they are ok thoughts to process.

I have fed the dogs and I think I might head to bed. I’m really tired and hope I sleep through the night.

Inhope you find some rest and some peace

@Captain24 i specifically dont have alot of plates, glasses etc so that I have to wash them regularly. My bench gets cluttered with things, but usually not by me 😂.

It can be but i get lost in my thoughts sometimes and that can be a scary place (I'm safe).

Hope you can get a good night's sleep sweet, night night ❤️

I'm glad that this time you know what to expect and can prepare @Captain24 but I do hear you with how scary it all is.

I can imagine that to be costly and difficult. But then also, giving her the best support is what matter most, so totally worth it I imagine.

Ugh sounds frustrating, and yeah the longer they're left unkempt the bigger a job it is to cut em back! I've got relentless grass and struggle to cut it regularly so it gets very overgrown 😅

Aww that's so cute haha. Yeah will have to be when I'm definitely gonna be home for 24 hours so probably Tuesday cos someone is coming round to check my fire alarms so I'll be 'trapped' at home waiting for them 🙃

I'd love a wee bush stroll!! Maybe over Easter 😊

I know what to expect but it’s hard to prepare for it as I can’t control it. I’m trying and I hoping with help maybe we can keep it contained. Sleeping important but I’ve been tossing and turning for nearly 2 hours! I don’t think it’s going to happen. @Jynx. I thought about getting up and doing stuff and trying again but I’m worried that I’ll just keep going and won’t end up going to bed.

It is quite expensive but I gotta do what I gotta do. It’s important that Pix has the right care and treatment.

Until I started mowing mum and dads it was always out of control but the neighbours keep getting brown snakes so it needs to be maintained. I’m worried about snakes too if it gets too long.

Havinv to wait around sucks. I like to know a time, I don’t do waiting very well 😜. At least you’ll be home though and can do it.

4:39 I woke up. I am so tired but just can’t sleep. I have laid in bed for the last hour hoping to go back to sleep but it hasn’t happened. I struggled to get to sleep last night as well. This is going to become a big problem if I don’t get proper sleep. It’s already becoming a problem.

This is going to be cryptic.

Something bad has just happened here and I’m scared that it involved my auntie. I’m a little stressed with not knowing whether she is ok or not. I can’t focus on anything else other than ‘is she ok’ I have sent her a message but she won’t be able to respond until heaps later in the day. I’m really worried.

Hello @Captain24 sweet, i can hear how worried you are about your auntie. I know it's tough to sit with but I think what's important here is to know that you've done what you can to check in with her and now it's just a matter of waiting for her to reply. Though I do understand how much that waiting game sucks.

I'm here to sit with you sweetheart, sending you hugs ❤️

She just sent me a message that ‘I’m good, thanks’ so that means she is safe but I’m not sure whether it was her in the actual situation. But if it was she is a pretty strong woman and I hope she will be able to take it her stride. @MissGremlin. Maybe she will retire now. She is in her 70’s.

@Captain24 I'm so glad you heard from her sweet. Wow still working in her 70's is impressive. Hope you are feeling better now that you know she's ok ❤️

I am a little knowing that she is safe. I guess we will find out more in the coming days, her and her siblings usually keep each other informed so hopefully she does. I’m worried about the psychological impacts from it if it was her. I’m sure she has had a million messages and calls. There is a lot of family plus all her friends and customers. Dad just drove past but all the police and stuff are still there so he couldn’t go in and check on her. @MissGremlin. It was a massive shock to see it on Facebook.

How are you going?

Im trying to talk myself into a shower so I can head into town for 20 minutes. It’s going to be hectic.