I can’t cope

Hey @Captain24,

Thank you for reaching out and for letting us know you’re safe, it really sounds like you’re going through an incredibly tough moment right now. Feeling overwhelmed, angry, or caught in dark thoughts can be exhausting, and it makes sense that you’d want to get some of it out so you can rest.

I want to gently acknowledge that the feelings you’re describing sound really heavy. The forums can offer understanding and connection, but some of what you’re sitting with right now might need support that can respond to you more directly and in the moment. You deserve that kind of care, especially when things feel this overwhelming.

If things feel heavy or your thoughts become harder to manage, please consider reaching out to someone who can offer immediate support. Services like Lifeline and Suicide Call Back Service are there to listen without judgement. If you have a trusted friend, family member, or health professional you can talk to, reaching out to them could also help you feel less alone with all of this.

I hope you can be gentle with yourself as you try to settle in for the day.

Lifeline – 13 11 14

Suicide Call Back Service – 1300 659 467

Beyond Blue – 1300 224 636

Emergency services – 000

~ c-user1999

Thank you for actually taking some time to respond @c-user1999. After the thread we have been posting in, it’s actually a nice change.

It’s the forums that have actually made me angry. I have a lot of heavy thoughts when I go to bed most times. But I need to get to sleep quickly today as I was running late getting to bed and have to be functional for 12.5 hours tonight. Plus travel.

I get how much the forums can’t help with and it was just a brain dump. I do see my psych on Tuesday and it can’t come soon enough.

Thank you for actually providing some support.

@ hi @Captain24

I am so glad that you are going to be able to speak with your Psyche on Tuesday, and like you say it can't come soon enough right!

Hey @Tolly

I know, so much to say, so much to get out. I’m not sure that I’ll have the right words but she will help me with that. I’m going to write a list on my days off. I also see my psychiatrist for the first time in 6 months, on Monday and my GP sent a referral with a lot of information in it. So that will be interesting. We don’t know each other very well yet so it’s a bit uncomfortable and the trust is hard. I guess it’s easier that he has written it. I need to write some stuff out for her too. Especially around hormones and my up coming surgery, the same surgery that triggered all this a couple of months ago. Plus my GP wants to put me on weight loss needles that also help with mood. I need to run that past her as well .

@Captain24

I am glad that it is written down too, otherwise it gets pretty daunting and you are really doing so much for yourself and addressing the issues step by step, I admire the way you are getting everything into place. This is tough stuff, but you are working through it day by day.

Hello lovely,

I know things were feeling quite overwhelming last week, so I wanted to check-in around how your mind/body are feeling? As well as little Pix, of course. @Captain24 🫶

I am sorry I haven't gotten back to you sooner. I had a few days off for in-person study workshops, rehearsals, and then there was a public holiday!

But you have been on my mind and I will be around over the next couple of days to chat.

I hope you have been able to take care of yourself, even if it's been in small ways. Thinking of you. 🥰

Hello @Captain24 sweet, how are you feeling today? ❤️

Hey @AuntGlow

Im still not feeling any better and I feel like I’m getting a cold bug I read that those symptoms are a part of depression, that was interesting. I’ve been feeling like I’m getting a cold for weeks but I never actually get it. Maybe that is why.

Pix does well sometimes with her needle but other times she is a down right bitch! It is anywhere between biting me and being a dead set saint! You never know where about in that she will be.

Sounds like you have been really busy. It’s ok, I know you don’t get back until days later so I accept that.

Thanks for thinking of me. I’m sleeping today and working tonight. I’ll be around tomorrow though. I’m doing an overtime shift tonight to try and get some extra money to help with my surgery and regain money from Pix’s expensive life!

I’ve not long got home. @MissGremlin. I had to call in and get some fuel to be able to get to work tonight. One servo was $2.31 and the other 2 were $2.17. All 3 are within 200 metres of each other.

Im really tired and looking forward to going to bed. I’m talking myself into tonight being a good shift as it’s the crew I worked with on Wednesday and they were good.

Mentally I’m struggling but I just have to keep going. I’m looking forward to tomorrow and having a day off though. It’s so hard to push myself to go to work and actually function.

Im thinking of you.

Why the name change?

So Pixie just bit me giving her her needle! She left teeth marks but didn’t break the skin! @MissGremlin @AuntGlow