I can’t cope

Hey @MissGremlin

Work was ok I guess. Just went about the motions. Just did what I had too. No feeling anything no nothing. I didn’t care just did it.

Just fed the dogs.

I work dayshift Wednesday now instead of nightshift. So I can be around a bit on Wednesday night. I don’t have to go to bed early.

We have a women in mining thing I want to go to Wednesday and they allowed me to change my shift. Its on boundaries and how to deal with people. I told them I was having a few issues at work I do want to put a boundary in with someone at work but I really wanted to go to it for myself! HR has offered to help me with the girl at work but I’m just going to tell them that I’ll deal with it myself for now.

@Captain24 I'm glad it was ok. I get the just going through the motions thing but you still did so well to get through it.

Good job feeding the dogs sweet.

That's good that they allowed you to change your shift for Wednesday. Hoping the thing is helpful for you and you can put the boundary in place with the person you work with.

It’s just another day @MissGremlin. No feeling, no nothing. No smile, no comprehending of what people say. It’s like I’m just in a void.

It’s good that they did it. I go to these events even on my days off. So I am a regular and it’s not just to get out of work. The last one was a work day and a few of the crew went and asked me how I knew so many people. They come from all over site. Office, underground, wash plant, workshop and open cut. It’s to get women together in a male dominated work place.

The crew in on Wednesday is the crew I’m doing my overtime shift with, they are a good bunch.

I think I might just have a shower and a better attempt at sleep tonight.

I hope you are as ok as you can be?

@Captain24 i hear you sweet and I completely understand. It's a tough space to be sitting in.

It's great that they do these events and I'm glad you can go to them regularly. I love seeing women in a male dominated workplace, women are just as capable as men with doing things.

Hope you can get a good sleep tonight sweetheart. Take care of yourself ❤️.

Work was hard. I didn’t want to be there and I didn’t want to do it.

@Captain24 sending you hugs sweet ❤️

I’m not feeling real good @MissGremlin

I feel really low. I don’t want to do anything or even be here. I’ve had enough. I’m sick of being so low. I’m sick of having absolutely no joy. I’m sick of being detached from everything. I feel like a shell. I feel numb. I feel worthless. I am worthless. Just going about the motions of life because I have to not because I want to. I don’t want to. I just want to curl up in a ball and forget everything.

I am safe.

@Captain24 I hear you sweet and i can understand how you are feeling cos your words right now describe exactly how I'm feeling. I wish I knew what to say but I just don't have the words, I'm sorry. But I'm sitting with you and sending you hugs ❤️

I’m sorry. I know you have it way worse than I do and I shouldn’t complain but it’s really hard. My feelings are still there even though I know I’m lucky. I’m sorry @MissGremlin