I can’t cope

I hope this doesn't last months @Captain24 . Does medication help it? But as you said, the upcoming surgery may be triggering it all.

How's Pix, but the way?

As for the comment about not complaining, I knew you were talking about yourself, but I also have to say the same to myself! Things are not really bad at all 🙂 It's just part of life.

Oh, my house is messy though, and that's stressing me out! I have a lot of washing to do! Once I do it, I'll feel better lol

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@MissGremlin wrote:

@tyme there's too much happening for me. No i don't, no plans to talk about.

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Go slow @MissGremlin . It sounds so so hard. You can only do what you can do.

Have you ever phone warmline or listenwell before? Might be good to add these to your list of services to call.

https://rosesintheocean.com.au/peer-care-companion-warmline/

https://www.wellways.org/our-services/listenwell-warmline/

Thankyou @tyme, I've heard of both of them but talking on the phone is really hard for me so I only do it when I have to. I much prefer being able to text than talk.

I agree with you @MissGremlin . I prefer text too. I was only telling @Captain24 last night that yesterday, people were talking about how 'rude' I can come across (if people don't know me). They just laugh and think i'm funny, and they laugh more because I'm not actually trying to be funny!

So yeah... I'm not good at talking on phones at all! Nor in real like! I'm much better with text.

@tyme that's really frustrating. I'm sorry they do that to you and I can imagine that it hurts.

I struggle to get words out when I'm overwhelmed, I also talk really fast which people can't understand and then try to make me slow down or breathe thinking I'm in a panic or agitated even when I'm not, it's just how I talk. It's why in school I refused to do oral presentations cos the teachers and kids used to tease me.

I see my Pdoc soon and my GP has sent her an email outlining things. So maybe more or medication changes are coming. The last surgery was what triggered it and now I have to face it again. This is the worst it’s been in years but I also actually have much better support now. @tyme

Pix is doing ok. I’m going to try and cut lunch out so she only eats twice a day. It’s better for her diabetes. But she isn’t doing well with needles.

I just didn’t want to have offended you. I have a reason for saying that but just can’t verbalise on here. I don’t want to upset anyone. I’m starting to feel that I need to sensor myself and not be open. It’s hard though. I don’t have anyone else to get it out with and keeping it in lets it just fester even more.

Mine is clean! Finally! Just starting is the hard part. If you can get the washing sorted it’ll help clear your mind? Well it does for me. Do you need an accountability buddy? Or is that too much pressure?

To be honest, I was grateful they were honest about how blunt I am and how rude I can come across. It makes me think back to other times when people have hinted it. I suppose it will help be be more careful and take note of how I come across sometimes @MissGremlin But yeah. It also proves I''m better with text.

Come to think of it, At school, I ALWAYS scored super low with listening tests and speaking test. It was my weakest area. However, I was always a great reader and writer!

Just goes to show!

Nah, I don't get offended here lol @Captain24 . Don't stress about it at all! Maybe it's just that I didn't communicate what I was trying to say properly - oopsie! My fault!

I'm glad to hear you feel more supported this time round. It's really important.

As for diabetes, I thought it's better to have frequent, smaller meals? Then again, who am I to know about diabetes in dogs! At least you know Pix is treat orientated.

As for cleaning my place, we have a long weekend this week. I'm going to whip around and gather all the piles of clothes and wash them all. I'll do all the ironing and then my house should look heaps better!

I’m glad I didn’t offend you @tyme. I also may have read it the wrong way!!! That’s the problem with text as well! My bad..

I think in humans that’s how it works but I guess with dogs you can’t feed them a little bit frequently. Also what I’ve notice is that over night her sugar levels seem ok by morning when I check her urine but of a night it’s much higher but she has had food in between. I don’t know.. it’s all a lot of work.

Oh a long weekend is good. Sometimes it’s just the little things. I cleaned off the mess from my 3D puzzle and also the Woolies’s bricks and it changed everything. I have washing to do as well. Maybe we can do it together.

Im going to head to bed. I’m feeling really tired and overwhelmed. It’s been a big 2 days and there is no sleeping in anymore as Pix needs to be fed. If I’m not up to facing the day I could go back to bed after.

I hope the rest of your night goes well.

Hey @Captain24 ,

Wassup?

Are you actually making anything with the woollies bricks? My nephew has been obsessed with them.