I can’t cope

@Captain24 I've occasionally lost a dot but I'm working on a tray. This one is of a cow ☺️.

You do well to do it on a tray in bed. @MissGremlin. I’m not that coordinated! It sounds cute.

@Captain24 I've knocked them over on the tray many times, it's like playing 101 pick up 😂. This one is a bit cute, I'll share it once I'm finished. How's your diamond art going?

That would frustrate me @MissGremlin

I haven’t touched it but I guess I have been working. I’ll see what the next few days brings. Who knows. Right now I don’t feel

like getting out of bed for days but I have too much I have to do,

Im thinking I should probably head to bed now though.

Im hoping to go straight to sleep so if I stop responding that is why.

If I don’t talk I hope you have a good night and may some sleep find you.

@Captain24 I'm about to try to sleep myself, hoping we can both get a good night's rest.

Night night sweet, love and hugs to you ❤️

I got a decent sleep. My body is sore though. I desperately need to wash my hair but it’s pointless when I’m only going to mow again and get all sweaty and full of grass again.

Im still feeling tired and I don’t have much energy to give. What can I do to get more spoons? What can I do to feel like I can function properly? I still have 12 days before I see my psych.

Am I ever going to get through this? Why can’t I just be ‘regular’? Why does it always have to be so hard? Why am I always failing?

@Captain24 I'm glad you got a decent sleep but I'm sorry that you are sore.

About getting more spoons, this is where self care comes in and finding those little glimmers. I struggled with this a little while ago with filling my cup and it didn't seem to matter what I did i couldn't refill it. I know it's hard sweet and not feeling like you can function properly is incredibly tough.

Sending you so much love and hugs sweetheart ❤️.

I want to go out and mow my lawn before o go to the doctors in 2 hours. @MissGremlin But the grass is long and is wet. I think I’ll do it anyway. That way after all my appointments I can just rest and unwind. The GP is going to be hard but so is the dietitian if I’m honest with her. I still haven’t eaten and don’t want to. But then recently I’ve eaten too much. I really need an ED plan so it’s cheaper for me to see her but my psych doesn’t do ED’s.

I still have to finish my 3D puzzle and it’s just making a mess so I have to do that today. It’s like it’s just something else to add to my day. As for self care I don’t really know what to do. I’m not very good with that. That’s something else I fail with.

I was doing wind-down Wednesday's but there hasn’t been any PSW workers about to help me with that and I don’t know what to write anyway. I thought maybe that might help. I’ll be at work next Wednesday anyway.

How are things for you?

@Captain24 mowing the grass so you can rest and unwind after your appointments sounds like a good idea, just try to take it slowly. Hoping your appointments go ok sweet.

As for self care it doesn't have to be big things, it could be sitting in the sun for a few minutes with a nice drink, playing or cuddling your beautiful pups, listening to some music you like or watching a show/movie.

You could go back over the previous wind down Wednesdays if any of them helped?

I shared a post in my thread about last night and how I'm feeling. Just about to head home.

I didn’t end up mowing and now I don’t have time. I boiled some eggs to eat instead. @MissGremlin. I did a little more of the puzzle while they were boiling though. I’m nearly finished. 25 more pieces to attach and it’s done. So that shouldn’t really take long.

I’ll have to mow later. It’s really only about an hours worth. Then face mum and dads tomorrow.

I can try those things after everything else is done. I might have a bath after doing to lawn to ease my sore body. I’ll see though.

I’ll have a read