I can’t cope

@Captain24 i struggle to visualise things aswell. Hoping I'll be ok at the dentist and I'll have my friend with me aswell.

@MissGremlin glad you got support of your doc and hopefully things will ease off and you can get some much needed rest soon... dentist is terrifying for many people, and with everything you have going on right now it's no wonder it's hit you extra hard tonight. Remember to try to focus on the now, and you can prepare yourself more fully when the time gets closer.

@Captain24 nah not at all, you're not blowing it out of proportion when it's a humongous portion of distress you're navigating!! Think of spoon theory and fork theory right... You've got so many huge forks in you, making everything hard already. Some of them are impossible to take out, like Pix's care or going to work. But when you go to take out the little forks, like the dishes or the yard, you find yourself with no spoons left to do so, cos they've already been spent attending to and managing the distress of those big forks. Does that make sense or did I just ramble randomly about cutlery at you? 😅

Yes it would be so lovely, going to look for seashells or trying to find sneaky octopuses!! Thanks so much hun, appreciate you 💜

At least you will have a support person. @MissGremlin. Will they go in with you?

@Jynx I'd just forgotten about it. It's also knowing that I'm going to be tired after the [edited by moderator] concert on Thursday night. This week is so full on for me, tomorrow is the only day where there's nothing on. First things first is making it to my doctors appointment on Tuesday.

@Captain24 Yes she'll come in with me. It's in the city and i don't cope with the city cos its too busy and driving in there is horrible.

You talked to me about cutlery before. So does make sense. @Jynx. I never thought about the forks that way though. Now it puts a little more into perspective. I can see why I’m not being able to do stuff. Doesn’t make me feel any better about myself but at least I can see it.

Im glad you can see what I’m going through. Just having it written in words helps. I feel like it’s a lot, that it’s consuming me, that life won’t be the same again. The distress is next level. Just having someone that can see it and understands helps. (Oh.. other than my psych) It helps me to understand myself better. It helps to know that this is something that does happen and is not abnormal. That’s not the right word but words are hard. It helps to know that it’s not just all in my head that it has a label as such.

Oh.. I want photos but I especially want photos if you see octopus!!! Please!!! Do you ever see people from school? Do they know you? Do they accept you?

I totally get the ‘to busy’ @MissGremlin. That’s why I’m scared to see my psych at her new office! Hence she is going to try and meet my needs and met me at the beach.

Im glad that she will go in. At least you have a hand to squeeze when it gets too much. Sounds like a good friend.

@MissGremlin just letting you know I edited your post - just for anonymity we ask that members don't share about upcoming events they're attending (I mean, unless it's an online thing?) - you can talk about it after the fact though 😉

Sounds like a HUGE week hun, and I know that sometimes for me, that makes rest and sleep even harder - even if it's something I'm looking forward to. I hope you can have some down time tomorrow to prepare for everything you have coming up 💜

@Captain24 I'm so glad your psych is willing to meet your needs and meet you at the beach. The city is just too overwhelming for me.

There won't be any hand squeezing, neither of us really do being touched other than by a few select people 😂. But she is a good friend and when I've needed a hug (when she was with me putting all my dogs down) she's been there for me.

Hahaha.. I’m not good with being touched either. Only select people are allowed to hug me and I don’t like it when people do and they aren’t the select people. @MissGremlin.

Totally makes sense @Captain24 and it can definitely feel like we're 'abnormal' when we can't do things that seem so benign, like putting the dishes away! Sometimes when we're this overloaded, we can get tunnel vision, and it helps to have someone outside of our brains to gently point out to us that it's not just about those little things we can't seem to be able to do. It's about all the big things taking up our time and our mental and physical energy and that's what's making the little things feel downright impossible to do.

Haha if I see one I'll definitely try to snap some pics!!

It doesn't happen much, thankfully. The beach where my parents live now is like 40min away from the town I grew up in. And it is a VERY small town, even compared to the small town where I grew up. So if I have to cross that bridge I'll let you know! 😋