I can’t cope

@Captain24 that unresolved feeling is tough but once things are out then you can start working on healing.

Sitting outside is perfectly ok sweet, take some nice deep breaths and take in the fresh air.

I'm really not having a good day today but it's ok sweet, I'm here for you ❤️

She is really concerned with my safety. @MissGremlin

Im sorry Im really struggling

Please look after yourself. You are more important. I’m just too much. Take care of you

@Captain24 so like being on the beach means you avoid having to traverse the congested area? Wow, she really is a good one, to wanna accommodate your needs in that way!

Aww maybe that's a good sign then, if she's got her playfulness back!! I hope so!

It was a really lovely weekend 😊 Here's a few pics, as promised!

Silhouette selfie! TeeheeI think it's a puffer fish?We saw some fairy penguins!So fluffyyyyyy

I’m really lucky to have her @Jynx. I don’t know that many psychs would do that.

It means she’s getting back to her old self. Which is a good thing.

That place is beautiful. I’m glad it was a good weekend. Thanks for sharing. I appreciate that

@Captain24 it's ok sweetheart, you have nothing to apologise for and you are definitely not too much ❤️.

Your psych is an amazing support for you sweet and I can understand why she's concerned about your safety.

I know things are hard right now and they have been for a while, but no storm lasts forever. Things will get easier, maybe not immediately but with time they will. But we are here with you throughout this journey, every step of the way ❤️.

Sending you so much love and hugs sweet ❤️

Thanks @MissGremlin

can you do me a favour and read your own words!

The hard thing is that this won’t last forever but it could take months, this is one of the worst though. It’s been a long time since it was this bad. But I’ll be back here again. The life of bipolar.

I have the same surgery that triggered it again in a couple of weeks. Not really looking forward to that.

@Captain24 I wish more psychs did!! I have thought about how helpful it would be sometimes to do like a 'walk and talk' type of session. I think something about the gentle movement helps me to think and to process. I do understand that there is probably a bunch of liability stuff that maybe a lot of psychs want to avoid. But being able to do the healing work in environments that we can connect to - in nature, or in terms of our bodies - that is pretty helpful to my mind.

Very good to hear!! Aww she's so blessed to have such a caring person there to look out for her 💜

You're so welcome hun. I love the beach too, it's always good to be able to get back to nature hey.

Aww @MissGremlin you are so wonderfully kind, thank you for your words, as always 😊💜

Hugs to you both!

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@Jynx @moderator can you put this in a trigger box or delete it I’m not sure it’s ok. Please.

T/W: Suicide Ideation

@Captain24 I can definitely read my own words but applying them to myself is another matter.

I hear you sweet and Bipolar is tricky. Yes it could take months and yes there's always that possibility of it happening again but each time you'll get through it and we'll always be here for you along the way ❤️.

I know the surgery coming up is a big thing for you but you're not going to be alone going through it ❤️

@Captain24 sweetheart i can relate to this feeling/thinking so much.

But the truth is that this is the time that being compassionate to yourself is the most important. You're hurting deeply because there's so much going on, life's thrown so much your way in a very short period of time and there's a point where it gets too heavy to carry and those thoughts become very loud. But in saying that those thoughts don't define you, yes they can be there but it's how we choose to sit with them that makes the difference.

When you struggle to be compassionate towards yourself that's when we come in to gently remind you to be kind to yourself and if you can't in that moment then we'll be kind and compassionate to you ❤️.