I can’t cope

I don’t even know what to say @MissGremlin. It’s all just a mess. I’m just a broken mess beyond repair.

@MissGremlin and I are here - we gotchu @Captain24 💜

What have you got on for this evening hun?

Not much @Jynx. Feed the dogs at 8:30 and that’s it.

@Captain24 i hear you sweet.

Did something happen at the appointment or on the way there or is it the emotions of it being the last time you get to see her there?

Nah. I have felt like it for weeks but Pix has been a distraction and the GP opened it all up yesterday. My psych was good but we did a little bit of digging. Now I don’t see her for 3 weeks. Next time I go down she is going to meet me at the beach and do our session there, we just have to work out how to go about it but that won’t be until October anyway. @MissGremlin

I did take some pics while I was there. Not very exciting though. @MissGremlin @Jynx

 Theres no shells on the beach just little rocks. I did bring a couple home.

@Captain24 that makes sense, stuff with Pix kinda putting everything else to the side, now it's catching up with you. It's hard when it feels like it's all been pulled out and laid on the table, without necessarily feeling any resolution.

Love love LOVE the idea of doing a session on the beach! That's really awesome for your psych to want to do that with you! The waves could almost be a little like EMDR - they're so sooooothing 💜

How is Pix going, is feeding time still a bit rough?

@Captain24 that's tough when things get opened up and when there's a 3 week gap between appointments. Doing a session at the beach sounds wonderful.

Love those pictures and the pebbles are stunning 😍

Apparently where she is moving to has a beach 5 minutes away. She has to work out the logistics but her new place is on a main road and in a built up area and I said that scares me. @Jynx

Pix gave me a scare yesterday but when I walked in the door she was playing with a toy. That’s the first time she has done that. Feeding times are still hard. Mom had to do this morning as I left early and apparently that went ok. I guess Pix and I just have to work it out. She has more tests tomorrow night. Not sure what that will show.

How was the beach weekend?

It’s like it’s unresolved. @MissGremlin. But I guess there is so much to lay bare to work out where to go from.

Im just sitting on the chair outside and cant get up and go in. I dont care to.

How are you going?