I can’t cope

They have gone in so that has stopped. The phone has t though. Now there are old people that must be low in hearing yelling to talk to each other.

He is running late and there is still at least one person in front of me. Maybe 2. I’m scared he is going to say I have to come back for my MHCP. My psych organised this. Not me. He should know and should make time. But he is already running 35 minutes late.

Sorry for posting but I’m getting really overwhelmed and anxious. I need to get it out somewhere.

I just want to get up and walk out but I have to pay anyway and who knows when I can get another appointment. Could be 6 weeks or more.

Hey @Captain24 - sounds like the doctor's office is a noisy old place! Are you ok?
Deep breaths! Let's hope they don't keep you waiting too much longer.

He has just called someone else in so there is still another one to go. @D4Dolphin

It’s so loud!!! I don’t know how people can work like this.

Im not ok. Im really struggling to breathe. I’m trying to slow it down. I think I appear calm

in the outside but totally not on the inside. I feel like I’m heading towards an anxiety attack.

Now someone else has come and listening to stuff on their phone and to make it worse it’s kids voices and crying. People have no consideration. This lady is probably my age or older so should know better.

They invented silent for a reason!!

It's great that you have this forum as a place to 'get it out', @Captain24 - but if the doctor's office is making you feel truly overwhelmed, maybe it's best to recognise that this is not a safe place for you right now. Maybe a little fresh air - let's hope the receptionist would understand?

Take care of yourself.

Hello @Captain24, I'm sorry I wasn't on when you first posted. Doctors offices can really be so loud, busy and overwhelming.

I'm hoping you've gone in by now and are away from the noise of the waiting room area.

I'll be here for you once you've finished with your appointment if you need me. You're not alone sweetheart ❤️.

I can’t risk missing my appointment after sitting here for so long already. He would just move onto the next person as he is already over an hour late. It’s quite a big place so the receptionist wouldn’t be able to keep track. @D4Dolphin

Just trying to focus on the carpet squares and the lines in some of them.

I’m still waiting @MissGremlin. There is still someone in front of me.

My back is hurting sitting in this chair. All I want is a cigarette. My dogs are at mums. I still need to get fuel for tomorrow. It’s just all too much right now.

Im sorry for dumping.

Did you get some sleep?

@Captain24 I'm sorry that you are still waiting sweet.

I know usually the chairs in a doctors office are not the most comfortable. It's ok sweet, let's just focus on the appointment right now then we will tackle the other things after. One step at a time sweetheart and try to just breathe ❤️.

I got a little bit but woke up twice in a panic, one of those times being right now. I'm really hot and feeling sick so I've put my aircon on and I'm just sitting with Casper.

I’m home! @MissGremlin

I came out of the appointment dropped scripts into the chemist wakes around and booked a CT scan, picked up the scripts, put fuel in May car went in and picked up the dogs really quickly and have just walked I. The door and having a much needed cigarette.

It was a really heavy appointment. Really heavy. He nearly didn’t write me out painkillers as he was concerned. I promised him that I would be safe with them. It took some convincing though. He did finally agree and we agreed on terms with them.

I have to see him again next week. My psych didn’t hold back in her letter to him!

@Captain24 I'm so glad you are home sweet. You did so well to get all of those things done, I'm so proud of you.

I know how heavy those appointments can be but you've done it now sweet. Thank goodness he gave you soon pain relief, just make sure you are careful with them. I do know how hard it is when it comes to medications.

It's good that you can see him again next week, you need and deserve the support.

How are you feeling now sweetheart?