I can’t cope

@Captain24 i just didn't need this. Not on top of everything else. All I wanted to do after doing my morning things was come home and rest.

I've cleaned it out with a stuff that I have here from my last girl that I lost. But it's badly infected so it's going to need antibiotics.

It doesn't sound horrible to say. I'm just really glad that you do have good support and that mum helps out when you need it.

How is Pix doing at the moment?

@TunedIn RSPCA apparently do loans but not helpful when I can't afford to pay it back. The vet doesn't allow payment plans and I don't qualify for their vetpay that they do as I don't earn enough.

Thankyou ❤️.

Sorry I just needed time to breathe before. I went into full panic mode and thoughts really took over.

@Nala2022 he's my world and my assistance dog in training. It's just bringing up all the past from when I lost my girl when she was only 3. The fear of something happening to Casper and me losing him is too much to even think about.

Thankyou ❤️.

Hello @Ru-bee,thankyou for the resources. Unfortunately the one for my state isn't able to help out.

Thankyou ❤️.

I just didn't need this, not now. There's already too much going on. It's brought up so many thoughts and fears. Before I discovered this I'd already rang my doctors surgery to try to get an urgent appointment with my doctor as I'm not coping with things (haven't heard back yet but really hoping i do.). I've messaged my counsellor aswell now to let her know what's going on and where things are sitting. I don't like feeling and thinking this way but I'm stuck in a bad headspace. (I'm safe for now).

Also @Captain24 I'm sorry for posting all this on your thread sweet. I didn't actually mean to but was in such a panic when I posted that I didn't realise. So I'm so sorry.

Yeah it's a lot @MissGremlin but it's great to hear that you're being so proactive about getting support when you need it. I hope you hear back soon are able to get in to see you GP or counsellor (or both ideally!) and in the meantime keep connected here

@Ru-bee i know i need extra support at the moment so I'm trying to get that before things spiral completely out of control which it's not far off of (I'm safe for now). I will try to stay connected here aswell cos I know the last thing I need to do is shut down.

Jett has been pretty good with her @Ru-bee. He is by her side a lot and isn’t hassling her to play with him. He is being pretty gentle. He misses her terribly while she was in hospital. The last time I took her in, when I came home without her he was trembling. He stuck beside me constantly.

She seems to be doing ok now. She is bright just a little tired. But she has been really sick.

Im really lucky with her care @Nala2022. I can’t fault the treatment I have received and they are there every step of the way with her. Nothing is to much with me calling.

It’s ok @MissGremlin. Post wherever you need to. It’s all coming through here so just keep going. It’s all ok. I get the stress and the panic. I don’t know what else to suggest that the others haven’t. I hope you can work something out.

Thankyou @Captain24 sweet ❤️. I'm about to take Casper to the vet so will talk a bit later.

My head is pounding from crying so much. As you know with Pix and Jett they aren't just pets they are honestly our whole world and our reasons that we are still here.

Hope all goes well @MissGremlin

I totally get what he means to you. They are our everything. There is no life without them.

Thinking of you.

All I have to do on my list is put the quilt cover on when the quilt dries, that’s what Pix vomited on and fold the one I took off when it dries. That’ll be this afternoon and the only other thing I have on is my GP appointment.

Now I get to do nothing. That’s not a good idea as it lets my head spiral but after not sleeping much last night I need a rest. A sleep would be better but that’s not helpful either.

My back is hurting a lot, not quite as bad as yesterday but it’s still extremely sore, at least I can nearly stand upright. I’m hoping the doctor will give me something for it.