I can’t cope

It has given me a little perspective @Jynx. I was also talking to Dreamy and they are in a similar page to me with things just need to be done.

So far today all I have done is get out of bed twice and it’s only lunchtime. I have set up a mini bricks kit to do but I have also gotten out a 3D puzzle. I’m thinking of maybe starting that. Not joy but trying to find joy.

I have a whole afternoon but am just making myself try things, well after mum and dad leave anyway. Spontaneity isn’t a strong point, I like things planned and organised. I actually wish we had a proper picture theatre as that some like something I could do. But alas it’s and hour and a half drive away. That’s a whole day and I need a babysitter for it. So that too needs to be planned.

When I first started seeing my psych she made me write little notes and put them in a jar. Just with little things like 10 minutes of diamond art, 10 minutes of lego… I don’t even remember what is in them. But she did say if I didn’t want to do that thing to pick another. I have set it up but never used it. I’ll see how my afternoon pans out and I might go from there tomorrow after I mow mum and dad’s lawns.

I did sleep well. Pix woke me at 6 and then I rolled over and didn’t wake until her alarm went off for breakfast. Lucky I have at one for meal times!!

I hope you are having a good day.

This is what we just did @MissGremlin @Jynx @tyme @Flutterbug9 @AlwaysMyself

@Captain24 awwww that's absolutely gorgeous 😍.

That’s so sweet @Captain24 (no play on words intended).

great photos of the of all the dogs. Who does the 3rd dog belong to you? Is it a type of spaniel?

Pix looks sooooo happy. The smile on her face in the 3rd photo.

I was hoping it would make you smile @MissGremlin. It was pretty cute. Pix is now sleeping off the excitement. I think it got a little much for her at the moment.

@Captain24 it did bring a smile to my face so thankyou for sharing sweet. Haha I can relate to Pix needing to sleep off the excitement.

We do birthday parties for all of them. @Flutterbug9

Keiko is mums dog and she is a Japanese Chin. It’s a really rare breed in Australia.

She did enjoy herself. She didn’t have as much lunch as usual so that she could have a little bit of cake. She enjoyed it just nowhere near as much as she usually gets. Now I’m just watching her but she is exhausted. It was a lot for the sick little girl. She had fun with them and nanny and Poppy so that was good.

So I did a little mini blocks kit this afternoon. I looked at the 3D puzzle and watched some tv instead. I’m just so tired and sore so I thought I’d go back to bed for a little while.

Just as I climb into bed my best friend rang. She came around and we just stood out the front of my place. She told me what I was doing wrong with Pix. She told me how bad things are for her at her place with her dad and his partner. They live in the same property just different houses. She told me how it’s so hard and that it’s like there’s a big black cloud. She told me I wouldn’t get it.

She left and I went back to bed.

@Captain24 well done for doing a mini blocks kit.

How are you feeling after your best friend visiting and the things she's said sweet?

I was happy that she wanted to come. @MissGremlin But telling me I’m doing the wrong thing for Pix was hard. I’m not listening to it but it still hurt. I do know what it’s like with her family as I have lived it for the last 20 years. It’s always a drama and I have been on the receiving end numerous times. So I do know and something says that maybe I do understand that black cloud!

This is why I prefer to be alone. I’m better off with no one.

Sorry I will go as you don’t need this