I can’t cope

I have not long woken up. At least it was better then 5:30 and I slept all through the night. I don’t think it’s enough to recover from my poor sleep but at least I feel like I can function.

It’s freezing cold here. I’ve put a load of washing in the machine, 2 loads to go and I’m about to get dressed and go grocery shopping. There earlier the batter, less people and hopefully I don’t run into anyone I know.

Sitting outside the vet about to go in. I’m a little concerned, Pix is not well. She refused breakfast this morning and a treat. She has been drinking loads of water. I’m hoping it’s not serious, but I’m not sure.

Hello @Captain24 sweet, awww Pix not feeling well, it could just be getting used to coming back home maybe? I'm glad the vet can check her out though. I'm here with you sweetheart and sending you hugs ❤️

Nah.. it’s more than that @MissGremlin. Pix never refuses good. There’s something different about her. I got the best vet there so I’m a little happy about that. They have kept her to do blood tests. I have to go back in half an hour to get the results. She didn’t growl or bark at all. The receptionist was concerned as she could tell she was sick

@Captain24 awww I'm sorry to hear sweet. I know it's so scary when our furbabies aren't well. Hope that if it is anything that it's easily treated. Here for you sweet ❤️

I’m home crying @MissGremlin. Pix is in hospital. Hopefully just for 24 hours. She has pancreatitis and at this stage transient diabetes. She is one sick little girl. She needs to have insulin and just pray that it’s transient not permanent.

Pixie is the only reason I am alive. If I didn’t have Pix (before I got Jett) I wouldn’t be here.

Im heartbroken.

@Captain24 oh sweetheart, I'm so sorry to hear. I'm glad she is at the vets and getting the care she needs. You have done amazing to recognise that she wasn't well and get her the help she needs sweet.

I'm really glad that Pixie has been so much of a support for you and now you have gorgeous Jett aswell. For the moment can you give Jett some cuddles? I'd imagine he is also feeling very lost without her around so both of you having each other right now is important.

Hoping Pix is back home with you tomorrow and on the road to recovery. Know that you're not alone sweet, we are all here for you. Sending you gentle hugs beautiful ❤️.

I did get to it early. If I had have left it and just waited to see if she would be ok we would be having a totally different conversation. The vet said that me knowing my dog so well that I have just saved her life. @MissGremlin

Jett gets so anxious when Pix isn’t around. So he is going to need care. He is with me.

I still have the gyno appointment to go yet. I’m hoping that goes better than the vet appointment. I can’t handle 2 lots of bad news in a day.

@Captain24 I'm so glad that you took her to the vet as soon as you noticed she wasn't herself, you are an amazing furbaby parent sweet. Your gorgeous pups are so lucky to have you ❤️.

Awww sweet Jett, I'm glad he is with you. Try to breathe and know that Pix is in great hands with the vet and she will hopefully be home as soon as possible.

I hear you sweet and I'm truly hoping that your appointment goes ok. No matter what we will be here for you always. Sending you so much love and hugs ❤️.

I’m sorry for the negative posts @MissGremlin.

I read a post somewhere where someone said some people just post negativity and have no idea as they don’t know how lucky they are. I took that personally as I know I’m lucky in the fact that I have a job and a house. But that doesn’t mean my life is a bed of roses. I get that my life circumstances are better than some but my MH is a mess like others on here. It’s kinda made me feel like I don’t have a right to have bad MH and don’t belong here.

Sorry but I needed to say that as I no longer feel like I belong. It hurt pretty deep. MH doesn’t discriminate. But I guess that person thinks it does. I will no longer post in a thread that that person does.

Im sorry I'm such a bad member and if im too much for you please let me know and I won’t tag you anymore.

It’s just been a day and it’s far from over yet.