I can’t cope

That sounds hard @Flutterbug9

I don’t expect you to post anything you aren’t comfortable with. No one does.

I think it’ll take me a little while to go back. You twisted my words and interpreted them wrong. I don’t need to upset you any further. I also don’t need to be upset.

We got home about 45 minutes ago and made it safely. Pix and Jett are glad to be home.

Feel free to post whenever you would like

I’m starting to get anxious. I have my gyno appointment tomorrow. I get the results from my ultrasound. We also go through my complications from my surgery. I’ll find out where to go to from here but that scares me. I have been distracting myself from it with the holiday and everything that was happening. Now I’m home and tired it’s all I’m thinking about.

Hello @Captain24 sweet, i can hear how anxious you are. I hope your appointment goes ok tomorrow and the the results from your ultrasound are ok. Thinking of you sweetheart and sending you love and hugs ❤️.

Welcome home @Captain24 ,

Just read your post.

I hear your anxiety re your appointment. I reckon I would be anxious too!

However, in my head, I'm also thinking back to a post you made before around, If they find something, so be it. If they dont' find something, then so be it too.. right?

Will being anxious tonight change the result of tomorrow?

We are sitting with you @Captain24 . What time did you get home? I haven't had a chance to read back yet.

Hope the rest of the trip was okay.

Hey @MissGremlin , what'd you get up to today?

Hello @tyme, there's been alot of things happen today. I've already posted things in my thread and I don't really want to go through it all again.

For now I'm in bed and watching my TV shows with Casper snuggled up with me.

Thanks @MissGremlin

Hey @tyme

I got home at 3. I’ve already unpacked and put away everything. I’ve washed the quilt cover and folded it and put it away and also washed my beach towel and the dogs towels.

I don’t really feel any different being home. Nothing has changed.

I know being anxious won’t change anything and I will just deal with whatever happens but it’s still really scary as to what could happen. Surgery scares me and always has, plus the last one didn’t go well. It could be all good as well. But I’m kinda hoping something changes as I’m sick of having constant period pain.

Fair enough @MissGremlin . I totallt don't expect you to go through anything again. I hope you find a way to find down and have a good rest.

@Captain24 , it sure sounds so damn scary. I wonder if now is a time to focus on the breath and really practice some of that deep breathing to get you through it?

What time is your appt?

I’ve had a shower and got into my pj’s. @tyme. I had to wash the sand off.

My appointment is at 3:20 so I have all day to wait. I just want it over with so I know. It’s more the waiting to find out. Waiting to know what is happening.

I’m really tired. I’m thinking maybe I might go to bed. Is that ok? You have only just come on. I don’t want to let you down.

Please please, go to bed @Captain24

I'm sure you are exhausted. Of course you don't need to ask my permission! You do you 🙂

Let us know how tomorrow goes. We'll be holding your hand.

I am exhausted @tyme. I’m so exhausted that I just watched something on tv and I’m sitting here crying. It was a little triggering though. (Please edit this if it’s not ok) It was someone talking about bipolar and SANE. It just hit a little close to home.

I am going to go to bed. I just can’t stay up any longer. Sorry for bailing on you.