I can’t cope

Yeah it has been on my mind a lot. @Jynx

I feel you with the vomit! I’m waiting until

mum gives them their treats that she gives them before bed so I can take them to bed and shut the door! That way hopefully she will wake me up before and I can take her out.

We went to the rock face that I like and the beach was really good. Today my only moment was the beach. It was awesome. There was some waves to dive under and lots to float over. I stayed longer than I was supposed to.

I get home tomorrow. I’ll take the dogs for a walk along the beach in the morning and then head home. I think it’s going to be hot so there will be lots of stops plus with Pix going to the toilet so much I think I’ll need more pee stops.

It was an ok trip. There was a few highlights o couple of bad moments and then my brother moment. @tyme. It has really hurt the way I feel and really messed the holiday. I know it was only one night and it shouldn’t matter. But with my headspace the way it is makes it hard.

The beach was really good. I have enjoyed that mostly. I did have trouble seeing it at the start but slowly got better at finding the mindfulness in it.

Rain is good! Apparently it’s been raining at home too. They were excited with 22 mil over 3 days. Which I know is not much but right now it’s a lot to us.

That would be awesome. I’d love one. Would you go often? The maintenance would be so hard being on the beach. All the salt and stuff.

Photos from tonight @tyme @Jynx @MissGremlin @AlwaysMyself

@Captain24 absolutely stunning pictures sweet 😍.

@Captain24 sounds like the water has missed you, and wanted to hold you a little longer 😉🌊

Aww I hope Pix doesn't have like a UTI or something!! Maybe just lots more drinking water because of hot weather and a lot of play. The pics are just stunning!! What a sunset!! And omg they are just too cute!! I did a little squeal when I saw them 😂

I hope your last little wander along the beach tomorrow is super lush, sublime, oh so lovely, and soul-soothing too 💜

I’m awake early again. I set an alarm for later but no I woke up early. I am so tired. Maybe tonight I’ll sleep better in my own home and own bed.

I guess that means I can get things done ready to leave. I should have a heap done before mum and dad get back from their walk.

I am sad to leave the beach but looking forward to going home at the same time. Instead of swimming in the beach this afternoon I will be driving.

Next time I come I have a plan on doing 2 tourist activities. I didn’t see them until yesterday. So I need to save the $400 to swim with the dolphins. That’s something to look forward too.

Anyway off the pack the car and clean the house.

Hey @Captain24 , just catching up on the posts from the other day - I haven't been on the last 2 days.

"My brother really doesn’t care about anyone but himself. Unless he wants money."

Pretty sure that's still "doesn't care about anyone but himself" -- because money isn't a person lol. I know what you mean though 😛 my brain just throws in jokes too when it sees them. Pretending to be nice or care doesn't mean you are! (i.e. he is). So being nice to get money from someone does not mean he cares or is nice to them.

I've forgotten why you dislike his dog so much. I know why you dislike your bro.

I guess I'm wondering a little whether it could be a transferrance/association from your feelings towards your brother? Or because the dog does not get along with your own? (but possibly if it did accept your dogs & your dogs accept it, would that dissolve the dislike of that dog?)

.. or is it other reasons? e.g. an always-aggressive dog; a dirty and drooling dog.

My ex in-laws used to have an elderly dog. It had cataracts and thus was going blind, it was pretty deaf, it was small & scruffy (I prefer big dogs generally, but don't dislike small ones), it had fluid lumps under its skin, it had weepy eyes, and it always wanted attention when I came over. This dog irked me. I did not like being around it. But I realised why... it wasn't the dogs fault at all, poor thing (and realising this helped me feel OK and empathetic for it). The reality was, it wasn't really cared for - it got almost no attention except from visitors and even then it would often be shut-out because the in-laws didn't want it "bothering them" for attention. It was never groomed (brushed, washed, or eyes wiped) -- hence it was physically scruffy and icky to me. It wasn't the dog's fault it was going deaf and blind and had fluid lumps from ageing - although being blind and deaf didn't irk me, only the feel of the fluid lumps when patting it. I realised it wasn't the dog so much that irked me, but it was the lack of care and attention from its owners and how it was treated that irked me and also was causing this dog to seek attention whenever it did get let out inside the house where people were.

This is just so you understand a bit where I am coming from, in wondering what causes a dislike of the dog. 😊 And that I am totally not judging you at all for dislike a specific dog!! There are dogs I dislike too for various reasons, and even this dog (now passed) which I disliked and found hard to be around even when I understood why and had compassion for it too.

Swimming with the dolphins @Captain24 ? Oh that would be soo nice! I love wildlife, so even though i don't like swimming there are times like that that it is totally worth it for me lol.

I'll be going to QLD in a few weeks, and I have been considering whether to do a snorkelling tour that has a high chance of seeing / snorkelling with turtles. But my mum gets seasick snorkelling, so she can't. And the other people we will see there are not sure if they want to, because of the cost. But do I feel motivated to do it alone?? Not so much. it feels a lot more effort to do it alone.

I hope your drive home this afternoon is safe and "uneventful" in that way. 😊

Hi @Captain24

today I had script filled for meds which are to eliminate the bacteria that is primary cause of stomach cancer. Not the first time I’ve taken these meds for this reason during the last 12mths. Most recent blood test was couple weeks ago with gp giving my the results today.

Overlapping with this is knowing one of my relatives is on borrowed time following diagnosis of metastatic bowel cancer late last year.

I prefer not to talk about these on the forums, personal choice.

the wording about private chat and stepping aside (something similar to that) left with me with feeling you didn’t feel you were welcome to join in those chats.

I leave to you if wish to post on my thread. Is OK if no, regardless of the reason.

hoping you, Pix and Jett have had pleasant trip back home

It’s not my brothers dogs fault @AlwaysMyself. It’s hard when mine were locked away and not allowed out and she was free to roam around the place and she was only visiting. My dogs were staying there and not allowed anywhere. But I also just don’t like the dog. She is always wanting attention and my brother expects you to give it to her but he is just an arsehole to mine.

Go snorkelling on your own! I would. When I go back and go swimming with the wild dolphins, it’s a 5 hour cruise and I’m going alone. I also want to go 4WD and sandboarding in the sand dunes. I’ll do that on my own too,

Im home and have unpacked everything thing. The little bit of washing I have is in piles ready to wash. My quilt cover I had to take is currently in the washing machine and then I’ll wash the dog towels and my beach towel.

I’ve been home for 45 minutes. It’s nice to be here and both dogs are asleep!