Hey @Jynx
Its 2:45 and im awake.
It was horrible. It hurt so much. I actually didn’t want to be here in that moment. I just sat at the beach and cried for a bit. I despise that he is so selfish and inconsiderate. But I shouldn’t think anything less. It’s still hurting so much. It’s not something I can get over easy. It has ruined my holiday. Mum was thinking of asking him to come to fish and chips but changed her mind. I said to her ‘please don’t’ but she decided that he would bring is ex/partner and it would be too expensive. I said if she wanted him I would go and sit at another table with my dogs and leave them alone.
They are so exhausted. Jett just sleeps when we are at the house. He was asleep when mum offered him a treat and he didn’t even get off the lounge. He didn’t hear the treat packet rattling! They don’t play or do anything other than sleep.
Taking the kitties would be funny! I’d like to see that. Pix has been waking me up after she has peed inside. She can’t get out has mum has the door locked. She has been drinking so much water. I don’t know if it’s all the exercise or the different weather. But ist really frustrating me. I have to clean it up before mum notices. Just then I went out for a smoke. I needed it.
If all your energy is going into doing the basics then that is ok. You need to do what you need to do. The de-cluttering can wait. Maybe you will have an adhd moment and get it done one day.
Kath and Kim sounds good. I haven’t seen it in years and have only watched some episodes. It is quite a funny show and belly laughs are good. I really could do with some but nothing is funny right now. I’m still really really unwell but I’m trying to find moments. I did have 2 moments today. But right now I have gone back to feeling the same. It’s so hard. Other than that moment with my brother I’m still too unwell to even have suicidal thoughts. I’m just trying to get through the next minute without dropping my mask. I’m exhausted from masking constantly.
